This morning I was looking for a movie to watch. I browsed and found one that looked interesting. As it started, rolling through the credits, I was ready to settle in and enjoy something new. About five minutes into the movie, I realized that I’d seen it already, and not more than six months earlier, I think. But, I’m watching it anyway because it’s good, and because I wouldn’t be able to tell you how it ends, so it’s like watching it for the first time.
These instances are becoming more common for me. I forget what I’ve said, what someone else said, what I wore the day before, what I watched, what I bought, what I did… It’s terrifying in a whole new way.
I’ve suffered demons, angels, spiders, bats, paranoia, rejection… this is worse for me. I’ never had a great memory, but now it’s increasingly noticeable.
I made a doctors appointment. It’s not until November.
Good are u seeing pdoc @Hedgehog
I’m seeing a D.O. @far_cry0. That’s a medical/holistic family practitioner. I’m worried about early dementia brought on by years of psychosis and stress…
I understand you… it’s something really difficult to deal with. I too notice my memory is declining incredibly, not sure if it’s the psychosis, stress or medication (I suspect all three in me). My memory was good, nearly photographic for some things, it was the tool I used to compensate for my lack of executive functioning skills and camouflage them so that others didn’t notice. Now my memory and thus camouflage is lacking more and more and I notice it all through the day in the same type of things you are talking about. It is scary, I know.
I really hope your doctor can help you! Good luck! Too bad that you have to wait till November though…is there really no way to be planned in earlier, if you tell her you are very worried?
There are other types of memory problems than only dementia though, with better prognoses!
I just started to use a good quality fish oil, for several reasons. I think it might also help with memory issues. https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007%2Fs00213-012-2848-0
I used to take fish oil and then I stopped, but I need to start again. I used to take acidophilus and fish oil every morning. When I moved, started a new job and got married five years ago I stopped taking care of myself. I need to start again.
I wish you the best, @anon73478309. I hope you will find ways to restore your memory and feel better.
My dad has dementia. He’s in a care facility. I don’t want to end up like him.
I thought I had dementia at 21 my symptoms were so bad.
Oh, I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. Then I understand having memory issues is extra difficult and scary for you!
Do take good care of yourself, it helps in several ways! I’m not good at taking care of myself at all, but I recently restarted fish oil and a probiotic and started to eat more healthily and clean my home and I already feel more happy and a little bit more clearheaded now. And it’s really giving me a boost to care for myself in that way, it’s improving my self-confidence and hope.
Hope you will get the best possible news in November and you’ll be well.
Schizophrenia used to be called “dementia praecox”. Early dementia, but it’s oh so much more…
Don’t worry u will be okay @Hedgehog…
I suffer badly from memory loss - day to day things, conversations i’ve has things I have done it’s really worrying
It’s not just the illness but the medications too. Every time I start new medications (they up it) I have problems reading, problems with cognition, more negative symptoms (sometimes), and I gain a ton of weight. It usually levels out when I get acclimated to the medications though. Still, it screws with our self-confidence and messes with our psyche.
where I put my phone
a race I supposed did with my daughter
what I ate last night
what I said online
all the books I’ve read
if I put the clothes in the dryer
turning things off, like the oven
My memory is really bad. In addition to not remembering what I did or things that happened, I forget stuff like my ATM pin, my phone number, the names of my favorite bands and movies, directions to places I’ve been dozens of times, etc. It’s really scary.
This morning, I almost answered myself on a post from awhile ago. I realized it was me in time to delete my response.
I used to be quite bright. I feel like an idiot much of the time now.
The minute I’m asked a question about almost anything, my mind goes blank. I was filling out a form the other day and forgot what year it is…it finally came to me, but it took awhile.
I have these memory problems too, but I take pregnenolone which helps restore my memory and cognition significantly. I would recommend trying pregnenolone 50 mg every other day.
I tried 100 mg every day and it worked well, but I had to stop due to chest pain.
Try 10 mg 2 or 3 times per week. It is most effective at lower dose.
That sort of thing happens to me all the time. Unless you’re older I wouldn’t worry about it much. Memory problems are common with psychotic disorders I’ve found. I think everything can just get so jumbled and weird how are we supposed to keep track of it all? I mean we have to manage 2 worlds at once while non-psychotic folk only manage 1
So true, Anna. I have huge blocks of time (years) of which I remember very little (because I wasn’t really present) When someone asks if I remember this or that, like a popular movie or song, etc., I ask them what year it was and then just smile and say that I was really busy…
But this is affecting my work now. If there’s anything that can help me at least slow down the decline until I can retire then I need to try. I need 15 more years of working.