I would like to get a feel for what memory problems are typical for sz/sza. For example “I forget what I’m saying mid-sentence at least 5 times a day” or “I’m holding the mayo and can’t remember if I just got it out or if I’m putting it away” and also having to write down everything like appointments and tasks that need to get done. Then there’s the past how much do you remember?
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I remember bits and pieces of the past. My childhood is fuzzy, and my boyfriend had his gallbladder removed a couple years ago and I don’t remember it.
I also have the sort of memory problems where I don’t recall why I went into a room, etc.
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Have you always had memory problems? Do you feel it’s illness or medication related? Do you ever feel there’s something more going on with your memory?
I’ve had troubles with memory since I was a teenager. I think it’s illness related. I often wish I had a better brain.
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My short term memory is shot.
I can’t remember anything without actually writing it on paper, I go through about a notebook every month.
Frequently forget what I’m saying or doing.
My sister has schizophrenia also, she doesn’t have the same short term memory problems, but she hardly remembers hour childhood. Its strange.
Its worth mentioning that I do smoke A LOT of cannabis.
I think it might be a little better without the pot, but not much.
Recently I visited my mom for a couple weeks and couldn’t get stoned the whole time. I thought maybe my memory issues would improve, but without the weed the voices got louder. It was even more difficult to concentrate and follow through with a task.
I was very disappointed.
Maybe its a little of both, who knows?
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I have bad short term memory.
I even forget the conversations I have in my head sometimes straight after I’ve had them.
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I get thought blocking, although it’s not as bad as it was.
Mid way though sentence…
That and never ask me what I did last week or to draw a friends face.
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Not sz/sz-a but lose track mid sentence at least once or twice a week
Autobiographical memory is poor. Have used the analogy of a pie without much filling.
My whole past is a blur. I don’t remember it at all. Only bits and pieces. I live very much in the now. Which is a good thing anyway.
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not sz/sza? What do you attribute your bad memory to? Meds? I like the pie analogy.
I know you hear people say to live in “the here and now” all the time, but I had a therapist tell me once that my problem was I had no plan for the future and no respect for the past. I thought “what an idiot”. I wasn’t disrespecting the past, I simply couldn’t remember it. That was many years ago, long before I ever heard of sza. I wonder what he would say now, knowing he missed the diagnosis by a mile.
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Bad autobiographical memory- possibly aphantasia which I have.
A third sub-group also makes good intuitive sense: many folk with aphantasia report that their autobiographical memory, for personal events like holidays and weddings, is less rich that that of their friends and relations: for most of us visualisation is a big part of recollection. But none of these associations is true for everyone: there are many shades of aphantasia.
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My past is fuzzy and in bits and pieces, I also have trouble with memory when it comes to at times where people tell me something and I may or may not forget only seconds later, or say I was going to do something and I forgot seconds later.
I blame this on my condition since my memory seemed to get worse before I got medicated, medicine helps with my memory some though some how.
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I forget where I put things, my autobiographic memory is bad but thanks to my paranoia I remember everything bad someone says or does.
For example I clearly remember the grimace of a psychologist, three years ago on june, after she proposed me to volunteer in a kennel and I said that I prefered to help human beings.
I stop mid sentence, most conversations. usually to find the right word. My memory is slow and sluggish, takes time. i write appointments, lists, and then lose them. i lost the power plug in for the back of the tv (don’t ask me how) and have yet to find it. I forget to put shoes on some days. go out with shirts on back to front or inside out. The past i can remember, but not dates or specific times. the more recent past, is very jumbled. I have large gaps missing. I don’t remember my entire six month long relationship, i could describe what he looked like, but not be able to picture his face. it seems like a couple weeks to me in retrospect. I can remember quite a bit of my childhood sharply, but in contrast, thought it was still may, up till a few minutes ago. the last few years is a blur.
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For me, it’s like I can’t remember anything when I attempt to in the present moment. It’s like I just spawned into my body and I don’t know what I just did or where I was- or where I am now.
I have memory problems too. It’s mostly short term and it’s gotten pretty bad. It seems as if it deteriorating as well to the point where I’ve forgotten things that I know or even names of people that I know. I used to have a very sharp memory and used to remember details and everything but now it’s gone to ■■■■.
Sometimes in my brain a question will pop up and the answer also but it’s not the right answer and even when I try to think of it I can’t remember until eventually the answer pops up in my head again. It’s like all the information I know is being accessed in my brain and I’m forgetting a lot of the information. It’s hard to explain in words.
Then sometimes I’ll blank out and completely forget what is going on or where I’m going. It’s very difficult to have to humble myself down and accept that this is something I’m going to be dealing with for the rest of my life as well.
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My brain will also come up with wrong answers and will keep trying until it finds what it’s looking for or gives up.
I don’t seem to have problems with everyday memory. The things I can’t remember are my childhood and a lot when I’m psychotic.