zeno
May 2, 2018, 9:58pm
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There are many threads about it, I don’t mean that it makes normal people psychotic but that many schizophrenics hear more and louder voices for example while practicing it:
I’ve dabbled with it for a long time because it’s said to give insight into your mind. When I do it, I become aware of all these ways in which i seem to perceive myself and the world, my inner beliefs, and fears. But, (and this is hard to explain), those fears weren’t there before I meditated that particular session. I create them during meditation and foolishly think I am making emotional progress because I’m “letting go of these fears”.
Every. single. time I’ve done it in the last 5 years, it’s always made me feel worse - much worse. One time I actually went to the ER because I felt so agitated, and while I’m meditating, I’m so convinced that it’s helping and I’m moving forward.
Today I …
A couple years ago in my late teens I used to be into mediation and would do light meditation quite frequently to relive stress which worked. However, the more I started to meditate I would go into this deeper state of mind, and I would get this euphoric sensation in my head and would see weird colors and shapes. I would continuously do deep meditation until I had my first psychotic episode. I started to visibly see humanoid entities, shadow people, demons, angels, and Jesus Christ.
I’m wondering if this has ever happened to any of you?
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