sorry to be mean, I risk to be quite mean cause I decreased my dosage with the help of my mom. she thinks more and more that I am not schizo but borderline… one of my pdocs was also thinking it… cause I have a schizo friend of mine of which I am envious and she is really not like me… I feel bad since years, never crisis, I don’t lose my mind nor I haven’t hallucinations. its quite strange isn’t it? plus, the borders are often quite miserable which is my case. I am just sad and envy of others… I am fed up of being zombie on my meds, I really tried them, for a long time…7 years that I am on meds… I am low functioning person but this can change probably 
it sucks but I wasn’t doing fine on my ap, really, I need to be trusted by some of you still :)… briefly, ill see now, I try to think less, to avoid the negative thinking and to get out of this sadness for once for hell:)…
borders are quite psychopathic, probably more than schizophrenics,i was afraid of myself in the past but I realized that nobody is perfect so I should deal with this one day… even notmoses was seeing in me a borderline with psychotic features(I have paranoia)…
take care you, wish me luck and happy new year!!!
Maybe you are.
Don’t think there is direct correlation between schizophrenia and psychotpathy though. Some are, most aren’t. And most borderlines I’ve met are not psychotpaths either. You should investigate further on that subject before making yourself believe that.
I was behaving like a psychopath with my ex, it was tough… its just a manner of speaking, I still lack compassion for myself, for others probably too… but I ve never lost my mind, I was always knowing what I do… I was just full of hate,envy, jalousy… I don’t hallucinate, I just feel guilt which makes me paranoid…I am fed up to be treated by all kind of meds who are bad on me, really. its not possible to cant think, its not for me this thing:(…my schizo friend doesn’t feel that on her aps, she just get depressed on them…me,i have the pupils dilated by my zyprexa if its a bigger dose, I am even more paranoid on it, I stop sleeping…
but meds help some, probably a lof of people but they are not for me… ill keep my 5 mg for the moment and the rest is by me, that’s all. take care
Than you’re not a psychopath…
thank you dear Minnie,you re sweet… yes, this is one of my main problems. ive lost the people for all these 13 years ago so it will be hard to get out of this…as somebody said, the people with mental illnesses needs mostly lots of love, so it touches me your comfort but besides that, the borderline is serious mental illness also, the borders also had a hard lifes…I am asking myself why I am like this but there is no answer… me too,i smoked a lot of weed in the past, I didn’t fight really against my demons… maybe now its the time. cause I lost all these years…you said once that you had a drug abuse for a decade,is that right? for me, it was 6 years with the weed…
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Yeah but it was hard drugs, cocaine and others. Weed was more like self medicating, it’s a light drug. The issue is that it messed with my psychosis. You didn’t have that, so I don’t think it was that harmful.
It sucks anyway, and I’m glad you’re not smoking anymore. But you don’t need to add up to your list of worries.
yeah I don’t smoke. therewas a time that I became so afraid of the weed that I didn’t like the smokers… maybe I have a complexe of inferiority or something, always that thing that I am not cool.yes, right now I am not In shape so I am not cool.the fear not to be loved, always… but ill try to struggle this also… maybe one day ill smoke one joint, for the moment it will bad,i feel it :/…
ive tried extasy also in the past, I really liked it when I was reallydepressed but in the end, it is bad yes… it depresses you more than in the beginning…
Weed smokers are not superior to you because you don’t smoke… lol…
Societys standards are lame, try not to obsess over it, I know it’s hard, I suffer from the same. I’ve been sober for more than a year and a few days ago I drank, I shouldn’t sliped but peer pressure got to me. People don’t get it most of the sime, a handful of my friends get it and respect it. What’s socially accepted is hard to go against. But we can do it, without becoming the outsiders, we start to understand that confidence doesn’t come from others accepting us, comes from accepting ourselves. It’s not easy, but it’s doable.