Im becoming more limited in what i can do as the weeks and months go by
Anyone else get like this or is it just me?
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Put yourself on a schedule.
I’ve been trying to push myself lately and do stuff. But all that’s happened is I feel exhausted.
I have no energy. Or so it seems.
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Ive been struggling with family issues, mainly my mum upsetting me. And neighbours kids are loud playing outside while weather is nice.
But my nerves are bad. I suffer like you with low moods so i was suicidal twice this week, everything got too much and i felt overwhelmed. I overdosed last night and went to the hospital but it wasn’t a big deal, i do it sometimes.
I feel like i couldn’t handle going more than 10 minutes away from where i live. I go out less these days, maybe 2 hours a week its still something i suppose. Yes i feel very stressed especially while kids are on school break
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I’m really sorry for what you did. I’ve also been suicidal un the past, albeit mildly.
It is a big deal.
What was it? Alcohol? Benzos? Sure hope not hard drugs.
You need to start somewhere. Small as may be. How about breaking whatever addiction you’re struggling with?
You need to see a professional, they are trained to help people in need, know every trick in the book.
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Im not addicted to anything @Andrey apart from nicotine
I took paracetamol last night but it wasn’t a lot. I reached breaking point.
Sorry if i worry anyone 
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You’re playing with fire if you’re flirting with overdosing.
Please don’t do it again.
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You shouldn’t feel sorry for worrying us. I’m glad it ended well, but it’s still a risk you took. Paracetamol can damage your liver.
How do you keep yourself occupied? Me, I tend to ruminate and smoke, and ruminate some more, if I don’t give myself something to do.
Take a day, or a week, or a month if you must, to decide what you want for your life. What really tickles your fancy, floats your boat, gives you wings, etc.
Could be photography, or doing abs, or writing dark prose, or collecting beer coasters. Can be more than one thing. It’s usually more than one thing, actually.
Then take a leap of faith and start doing it, whatever happens.
And by whatever happens I mean, it’s all about the attitude. Most bad things won’t ever happen, it’s only our mind playing tricks on us, cause it fears change.
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It was between doing something irreversible permanent or doing that , i felt very impulsive
Ive probably taken god knows how many but a lot. I know sometimes its been risky but i can’t cope at times.
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Thanks @Andrey big hugs!!!
I like playing my flute, listening to music and painting, i also treat myself sometimes with a meal or a top.
I just take things easy because i tend to worry and overthink things otherwise
Thanks for caring
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Well, it looks like you’re doing many things right.
Maybe the meds could be adjusted?
I mean, feeling suicidal should NOT become routine. Please bring it up in therapy or when you meet your pdoc.
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Yep their aware of it, i do it less often now but i still get very low moods. I do try to occupy my time but i have low energy and feel like im up against it a lot.
My meds recently went up and that has helped a lot.
Ill ring psych nurse Monday
Thanks for your advice
I think i should take Diazapam more i think that helps but im scared of getting addicted to it but it really helps take the edge off
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@anon29983254 please do not do something ireversable. You worry me. I know you are on depot and those are harsh. Some of them can really paralize you.
Please talk to your pdocs. They need to change your meds. Is not ok what happends to you.
Is there any pdocs that is more friendly and has more care? You need someone on your side so you can have a team mate.
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Ahh I’m sure you still do alot! I hope you’re still kind to yourself even if your limited. I think that’s important. Being patient with ourselves
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Thanks @Davincii
I don’t see anyone from mental health apart from going for depot
I don’t work
My husband takes care of me
I stay in doing nothing but stressing for most of the time
My nurse ( speak on phone) ensured my depot clopixol went up
But im dulled emotions, cannot feel emotions much im flat as anything
I hear voices that say disturbing things
I believe there are major problems in the world that i won’t go into because we can’t talk about things online
Its just trying to manage everything
I need to stay on meds or my thoughts become worse and i cannot think logical off meds at all
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I am no doc but from what I’ve read clozapine is one of the most effective AP. It makes you really sleepy, but might help with some other issue. But brings some side effects. I would ask your pdoc about it.
Hey @Davincii mate
I hope you are okay and keeping well
Yes i tried clozapine but i was in a bad way on that one
I have to either carry on the same trying to manage best i can
Or try different meds which is a gamble because i might get worse side effects
Or stop meds which might be fools thing to do because last time i stopped them i was threatening to kill myself and couldn’t think straight and ended up back in hospital with depot