After a few days of silence devil shows up in my room. Dark shadow right in the corner. I can’t remember fully what he said I never can fully remember. It was something to do with reminding me that just because things were quiet a few days didn’t mean they weren’t there and I was safe and that I could take all the pills I wanted but it wouldn’t make him go away.
Then he attacked me I felt absolutely smothered, like I was being suffocated and couldn’t breathe there was so much darkness. I just prayed and prayed and then he left but he sent Plague and his minions to attack me and I got gross dark energy in me again. It makes me sick and unhappy and a worse person. I hate it. I tried to rebuke them and get rid of it but I don’t know if it worked, I don’t think so. I just have to remind myself God loves me no matter what.
Honey 50mg of seroquel made me more psychotic the next day, yet I slept the night before. Vraylar sucks ass! Just don’t take any stimulants, I e- nicotine caffeine. And workout, make yourself exhausted. Sometimes meds can make us more phsycotic.
I was at a point last night where some devil or devils were taking over my mind. I was just so tired and i couldn’t fight it off. Today after a year of suffication thinking i was going to hell ,hearing the devil and seeing him, plus a tbi thay i assume is progressing, God showed me the reason i went through all that. He had to cut away some stuff so i could enter into the next step of my destiny. So just dont give up. The answer to every problem is do good and trust God. You are loved. Im so happy today i can hardly contain it. Just dont ever give up and you will win.