Hey, this is my first post on here. I’m a 21 year old student with schizophrenia living in a major city. i moved out of my parents house this september and have been living in a basement appartment. a couple days ago, the landlord came by to inspect the premises after there was a leak in the building, and ended up calling me while i was the only one home and demanding i let him in, saying
he would take the locks off the door if i didn’t and screaming at me. we told him we couldn’t be able to have him in that day and we would have to reschedule for tomorrow five different times over text/email the previous day, but he came anyways.
he comes in incredibly angry, starts screaming at me and barging through the appartment. he’s yelling about how i’m disgusting and the appartment is a mess. the appartment was messy, but it’s because we had just had a water leak a week ago (the reason he is there!) and everything is drying out on the floor.
he keeps yelling at me about how stupid i am and how i don’t understand english (i have a lot of trouble talking, especially when i’m scared). eventually he leaves, but i don’t know when he’s going to come back or what he’s going to do.
one of my biggest fears is home invasion. my psychosis was childhood-onset and i wasn’t able to sleep most nights for years and years of my childhood because i was terrified that someone would break in and kill me and my parents. i compulsively plan escape routes in bed in the event of a break in. i don’t know how to control my paranoia after this happened - i can’t feel safe in my appartment anymore and i can’t relax. i’m always thinking about him coming through the door and screaming or hurting me or my pets.
i don’t know what to do - i am scared of seeking any legal help because i’m scared it won’t work and i’ll just be in more trouble or he will be more angry.