I used to worry police were putting cameras in my house when I went out. Was convinced. This subsided slightly only to be replaced with the notion police were camped out across the street. This caused me to live behind curtains.
Now I worry my landlord comes round my flat when I am out. I keep the flat ok clean but this slips when I am ill. I purposely take a note of what books are on the floor and at what angle.
One day I was sure my shower curtain had moved whilst I was out. Really scared me.
I think itās so hard not to read into things like stuff being in the wrong place, you check stuff like that so often that if you bump it you still think itās in itās original place.
Mine is I used to think someone had unlocked my fount door, when I probably left it unlocked.
I know my landlord/building manager did this. He mentioned it offhand once and seemed surprised that I was alarmed by it.
My roommate is frightened of my old landlord (different one) - after I moved out of my apartment and into our house, he followed us around town one day to our house and blocked us in the garage so he could talk to me. He calls and texts all the time. She says she still gets worried every time she sees a red pickup truck behind her - thatās what he drives.
None of my landlords/building managers - there were three - seemed to have any ill intent. They all seemed to like me a lot. But for someone already prone to paranoia, they were very frightening.
Background. I had a psychotic episode a few years back due to stress. I also have an ex-boyfriend who has quite the obsession with Stasi and zersetzung. Heās quite known to be a huge history buff, especially focusing on that time period.
He thought that it would be hilarious, that after we ābroke up,ā he would take advantage of my vulnerable psychotic state, and get some revenge on me! He actually went to the point of learning lockpicking, in order to let himself into my apartment.
Itās not the same as you, because the only things that I have found missing are clothing/underwear, and personal items. When confronted with the accusations from me, he tells people that I think that Iām being stalked by the CIA/FBI.
JimBob, do you have any exās who you pissed off?
Shower Curtains can move on their own, from drafts in the house. Check your doors and windows for possible drafts.
But yes. Psychotic episode, abd DX with Bipolar I/PTSD, but someone is actually coming into my house.
If you are genuinely concerned, tell your friends what is going on. They should be able to talk some sense into you.
From when I was little, I thought my mom put cameras around the house. I also thought she could read my mind and as a teenager used to get really angry when she wouldnāt do anything about the things I was thinking about. Weirdly, I never thought it was an invasion of privacy.
Funny my dad puts cameras everywhere. I know where they are and one day I wasnāt supposed to be home so I moved my car 10 feet to the left so it was out of the view of the camera and walked where I was avoiding the cameras
It was madness but I appreciate we have cameras for security reasonsā¦kind of scary though sometimes.
When I brought my birds over he set up a ābirdie camā so we can watch them 247
The thing that gets me @jimbob is all the things youāve described are exactly what I was going through before I was diagnosed. Itās scary as hell. But it really reminds me of how things were.
Even on meds, for ages, I just assumed there was a camera in my TV, but on meds, I didnāt seem to mind it. Now I finally no longer believe that.
But if your landlord 's had a stroke, he has better things to worry about than popping in for a look around.
Yeah my landlord has other priorities at the moment.
In reference to your post I used to doubt my SZ diagnosis. But from being on here I have met folk like yourself who seem to have shared the following exact same experiences. From paranoia as described above or more generally problems with the negative symptoms.
Is affirming to find my diagnosis is spot on (I had years of misdiagnoses)
My ex denied having cameras in our house until I saw a picture of the inside of our house with me in it while I hacked his computer. Same at the office, but cameras were there to see, just not the ones I saw.
Being on camera - or recorded has always been something my ex has done, even though he denies it and says itās just my SZ.
But he blows it when he gets excited about a new gadget and hapily explains how itās done, then gets angry at me when I accuse him of recording me!
He acts differently when the camera is on when heās home, itās a dead giveaway when he was being nice, and the worst- when he asked if he could help do the dishes for me!
I just looked at him wondering how long it would take to explain how to wash them,and where they had to be away at- even though he had lived here in same house for the past 25 years.
I do the card trickā¦place a card standing up against the door or doors and leave out the windowā¦if the card is still standing no ones been in your houseā¦if its knocked over and you cant blame a fan or the acā¦maybe discuss it with the nosy land lordā¦