Sorry this is in the diagnosed category. I’m not, but it said it was for people who thought they might have a problem too. I’m not trying to be a dick. This isn’t just a weird feeling or me pretending the thoughts in my head are voices, I’m not making it up. Or I don’t think I am anyway, I’m sorry if I am. I’ve kind of been experiencing stuff weird, thinking about stuff weird, sort of hearing things, feeling like there’s other things going on in my head since I was really young, in primary. I can’t really describe it in detail, I feel stupid going into it. I’m shaking just writing this.
I just kind of have a lot of feelings, a lot of the time where I feel like everyone hates me, like the whole world wants to spit on me, even the people I’m closest to. I’ve had a lot of varying problems with kind of hallucinations in the past, mostly aural but sometimes visual as well.
I know it’s not much to go off, I don’t want to sound like a dick. It’s just that I can’t talk about it well, to anybody. It’s like something inside me stops me from saying certain things. I’m terrified of going to a doctor and having to talk about this stuff properly, especially if I’m just going to get ridiculed but I want to know if it’s real.
I know it’s not very detailed but does it sound like I might have schizophrenia or am I just making it up?
I think someone on this site said that if you’re psychotic for over six months they’re apt to diagnose you as sz. If you feel like you symptoms are bad enough to disrupt your daily functioning maybe you need to talk to someone.
I agree with Crimby. Maybe you should go talk to someone.
It’s kind of been on and off ever since I was maybe 9 or 10. That’s the earliest I remember hearing things. With the exception of the odd good week, I’d say I have at least one small fit of it or something like it every day. I don’t know what to call it. It’s been like that for the last 3 and a half years though. It’s just gradually gotten worse.
I have a girlfriend who I try and talk to about it when I can, it’s just I find things hard to word, if I can say them at all and sometimes I just work myself up so much that I end up starting a fight between us.
I don’t really feel comfortable talking about it with anyone else though, not face to face.
I’m sorry you’ve been going through this. I agree with the others, you should talk to a doctor about it. The doctor won’t ridicule you. They are there to help people with problems. For both you and your girlfriend’s sake, I really hope you will.
My ex-fiance has Sz and he let it split us. He refuses to get help. So the disease turned him against me.
Please don’t let this happen in your relationship. Please get help now.
I’m really sorry to hear that.
Thanks for the advice, I might try to now.
Best wishes to you
If you’re looking at stuff online bear in mind that peoples symptoms are very complex and are different. You don’t want to leave it until it gets too much if you can help it.
Keep in mind that there is no quick fix sometimes.
It took me 20 yrs just to be comfortable with being a psychotic maniac.
I’m not after a quick fix as such, I can’t really imagine what that would feel like. I just kind of want somebody else to understand and I thought maybe if I could get the diagnosis, maybe people would try to understand more. I don’t know. It just feels like it might help but I’m not sure it would any more. I think that was just a lie.
Ive never been formally diagnosed so there’s no “paper trail” in regards to my psychosis and I like that.
If you need a formal dx to get the help necessary like medication then you do what you have to do.
I don’t know. I don’t want to have to talk about anything to anyone really and I definitely don’t want medication. I just want to know that it’s real. It’s just that I think there’s someone else in my head, or multiple entities and they hate me and they want to kill me, or they want to take over. I think it changes sometimes. That’s the main of it
They kind of control things I say and do sometimes and they’ve made me say and do things that I didn’t want to before - I don’t want doctors knowing about things like that, I’m scared of how they’ll react.
I guess I just thought it would make things real and it’d mean I could know better that it was just in my head because I guess I’m making it up.
Thanks though, it’s kind of good to know that you haven’t been diagnosed but you still trust yourself enough to say it’s not just a lie.
Thanks, seriously
And I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with it for such a long time
It’s not real dude and the continued questioning of that irrational belief is why I’ve been sick for so long.
I know where you are at…the rational part of your brain is saying that its not real but the deductive side is saying it is…well the best you can do is ignore the deductive side.
I’ll try and do that thanks
It just takes over a lot sometimes