I’ve had a lot on my mind the last couple of days. Between reoccurring memories, voices, visual hallucinations and just plain sadness.
Memories of stuff that happened when I was a kid. Voices telling me I’m not worthy of basically the air that I breathe. Shadow people and whispers.
Don’t worry I will never try to hurt myself again. I tried twice before. First time had my stomach pumped. Second just threw up all night and told no one.
I hope you’re okay @cbbrown. Just think of your lovely animals. I think i can speak for most people here when i say it would be a shame without you. Look after yourself. Hope you feel better soon.
Sounds like me, but i don’t suicide. I am thinking how i can improve myself. Quit smoking, loose weight are my major obstacles. I am working on a plan to overcome them. I can’t do anything about bad memories but rethinking how it shaped my life. How i suppose to love myself when i can’t to accept what shaped me.
I’m sorry you’re having a hard time @cbbrown. I have been depressed lately and it seems a lot of people are dealing with bad stuff right now. I am glad to hear that you’re not going to hurt yourself because that’s never a good answer and you would be missed. Take care of yourself and your pets. Hope you get to feeling better soon.
I sense you are scared. I’m sorry that you feel like you don’t deserve the best. For me, my childhood was very difficult, and unhealthy. I had to unlearn things. Like saying something isn’t okay if it’s not okay.