Before I pass on
Maybe it will listen
Today I forced myself outside for a bike ride, and it was ok. Sometimes we just need to persevere a bit. Times are tough, but medical science is advancing, and I truly believe we’ll have something better than antipsychotics soon.
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If you’re feeling really down though,then you should probably call someone. Maybe a hospital.
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There’s always hope.
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I doubt that. 324
Roxanna. Please. Get help. I’m worried that you’re going to kill yourself. People go through with it every day. I don’t want you to be one of them.
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@roxanna, please go to crisis. Go to the ER. You need to be inpatient right now. I love you and don’t want anything to happen to you. Please.
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Bananas taste good.
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Please take care of yourself @roxanna. You sound like you’re in a bad place. Please go to the ER or call the crisis place. I think you need more help than you’re getting right now. We all want the best for you.
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Why go? I’m going to come home to death threats and name calling 24 7.
If you’re suicidal than you need to get to the hospital somehow. Taxi, friend, Uber, family, boyfriend, cops, etc. Whatever works. There’s hope. You just can’t see it right now. But it’s there.
I was feeling down today. Really bad. But I got up, went to visit my moms graves and afterward went to my families for lunch and talked and ended up having a great time. That’s how life works. I don’t know why people in your life aren’t helping you more. They see the same things we do about you. Why aren’t they getting you the long term help you need?
I hate to say it because I value my independence like you do. And I have pride in the fact that I can live semi-independently in a nice apartment and take care of myself. But you may have to swallow your pride and find a less stressful living situation. I hate say it but maybe at this point in your life you aren’t able to live independently. Maybe in the future you will be able to but for right now you maybe need to be in some mental health setting with some kind of support every day. A group home perhaps.
There are group homes that are friendly and safe. You might want to live in one of those because you’re living situation right now is not working and it has not been working for a long time. This is real life and you need long term help. Not visits to a revolving door crisis center where you go in once a month and they observe you for a few days and let you out and don’t help you and then they release you and you go back to the exact situation and nothing has changed and you’re back in a month. I’m making sense, right? Yes, I’m making sense.
Boyfriends are temporary, there’s a million of them. You’re staying where you are because you don’t want to leave your boyfriend and he’s not letting you move to a upstairs apartment or across the complex or somewhere else. I hate to blunt but like Judge Judy always tells young women. This guy will be gone in a year. In the grand scheme of things he probably will not marry you, you may get tired of each other and move on. I’m not being cruel but you guys are two strangers who met and clicked and got close. But is this the guy you are going to spend the rest of your life with? I don’t want to meddle but this is the situation for lots of young people. If your relationship is good then more power to both of you. It’s great if he cares for you, you’re lucky.
But you need serious long term help which you are not getting. It’s plain to everybody on these forums.
You need to be smarter about your life instead of just doing the same things over and over again and things stay the same or worse.
I have schizophrenia, you have schizophrenia. We don’t have the luxury of fooling around too much in our lives. The reality is that we have certain challenges that the disease causes us that most people don’t face. I grew up to be 19 years old before I heard a grown man or woman screaming or raving because that’s not how normal life works. But that’s normal in our world of schizophrenia. These are the special challenges that face us. But if we get help and act normal we can live in society and maybe just scream on weekends, lol. Joke. You need to do something different, what you’re doing right now ain’t working and it hasn’t been working for a long time. The rest of the people on this thread gave you good advice on what to do right now. And they are right. But you need long term help and concrete solutions for your future.
Or, maybe the hospital will adjust your meds and you’ll realize that they are just hallucinations. At the very least, don’t you think the hospital will give you a well needed (and well deserved) break from all the harassment?
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Yeah I’m going to leave my bf of eleven years. ■■■■■■■■
I’m waiting for crisis mhmr mobile to call me back.
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Thank you for calling. You deserve so much more than all this harassment.
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Eleven years? Wow!
Sorry I’m grouchy right now.
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You have every reason to be grouchy. I don’t think anyone is holding it against you.
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They haven’t called me back. I’m going to bed
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Sleep well. I hope tomorrow is better.
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