1 minute read but I can’t find something like it on the forum. It’s a hard read but I need the advice from the professionals who can take it.
I think there is a conspiracy against me… the people outside are paid actors who are Satanist in their agenda by making me think they are against me because there is no evidence and its “evil” and the ordinary people around me think in sin and burn harder in hell. The voices hate me, they are making me have a sexual delusion, at first it was just my social worker from new Zealand who deliberately flirted with me for 8 months and then when I had sex with someone she somehow knew and then got really pissed off in her voice for about 4 months - literally screaming at me (none of this can be proved because nothing was actually said in conversation about it) and started having sex all the time for 2 years (even flew all around Europe) because that was her job secretly (and this was to make me crazy and have a psychotic episode). They want people to have sex in dirty ways and even pay them lots of money because its sinful lust.
They have an endless money supply because it all just comes out of a computer - out of nothing (thin air). It’s a massive Satanist organization. They REALLY hate me – they are making the women I used to jack off to in high school and college (these were friends even) have sex all day in the dirtiest ways you can imagine by at first making them hate me by destroying their life and then paying them obscene amounts of money, what’s crazy is that I don’t even see it, instead I’m going see it when I burn in hell. They suddenly deleted their Facebooks with loads of followers and pictures ect. They killed my cats (2) one with kidney failure and another with ataxia.
They steal stuff from my house. How do they do this all? Well, it crazy I know but they have access to nanotechnology (alien technology) which was told to them when your dead and then bringing you back to life, they can see you with a “third eye” which can see you, feel your emotions, read your mind and can do anything to the body and brain. The people at the top of this Satanist organization are going to be demons in hell and the rest of the workers will get an easier time in hell or “protected” by these demons if they help carry out their work. Obviously, none of this can be true and parts may be wrong because there is no evidence…
They are also wrecking everything else in my life, job, friends, even my family are reading my mind and insulting me and trying to kick me out. Lights, internet and computer parts are blowing up. My future girlfriend will mess me around and cheat on me but I can’t prove it. I know I need to take new meds but the voices are saying even clozapine won’t work this time. I have a lot of sexual dysfunction and can’t ejaculate any sperm even though I’ve literally been on no meds for about 2 years waiting for something to come back (the voices are still not that loud). When I go on even a low dose like 5mg of olanzapine it just gets worse and don’t get me started on 20mg of olanzapine. I was previously on 300mg of clozapine and 10mg of olanzapine for 10 years and had absolutely no problems. Wth is going on??