I think I am the devil. I am manipulative, slothful, selfish… bad. I’ve lied and stolen and have an addiction problem, so many things. Either that, or maybe I am just evil. I don’t know. A part of me says it’s a delusion, but all the things I just listed about myself are true. I am a bad person, at the very least. Maybe I am something truly horrifying. How can I tell? So many things are wrong with me that it’s hard to say it’s all coincidence or that I’m just an average Joe.
It’s a delusion. I don’t know how you’re going to take this but all of the things you’ve described fit into the “average joe” category. They’re not all that shocking.
What it does show is that you have a concience and morals though. Because you feel guilty about them.
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I’ve done those things in the past. I don’t consider myself a bad person because I don’t do those things anymore.
If everything you listed in your original post distresses you, then stop doing those behaviors. Change is possible, but it takes work.
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I’ve tried changing, but the demons just keep coming back. I feel like Alien spawn is about to rear its ugly head and rip right out of me. It has gotten worse over the years. More demons and more evil.
What do you take for meds. 
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Saphris is my primary anti-psychotic. I asked the doctor to take me off of it because I’m NORMAL, but she only reduced my dose. I know that sounds bad, but it’s not the meds. It’s me.
It really doesn’t sound like the med dose reduction is a success. You’re not the devil but when you start thinking you are then it’s time to tell your doctor about it.
I’m sorry you’re hurting right now.
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You sound like a pretty normal person to me.
We all struggle with certain evils.
This is a delusion and I’d talk to my doctor about it,
Possibly get a meds adjustment.
I thought, and still think to a degree, that I am evil, just hellbound, but it’s not true,
Its just another delusion.
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It’s a delusion we all have made mistakes in the past and we’re not the devil or demons
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Yes, it is a delusion. My voices told me I was the antichrist, but it’s not true. Truth is, none of us are that special. It’s when we start believing that we’re that special that we get into trouble.
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Tens of millions of schizophrenics battle with that delusion. It is just a manifestation of the stress you’re under.
Thanks, y’all. My husband pointed out that I’d just had my Saphris dosage lowered (at my request), and suggested that I talk to my pdoc about increasing it to the previous dosage. This is a new delusion for me. Right at the moment, I can look at it and say, “Hey, you’re not thinking right,” but sometimes, I think it’s true. That’s the bad part, huh?
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