This thread or post is perfect for me. Thanks.
Yes, I tried reasoning through my delusions and madness like John Nash. I took his advice and tried willing it. Unfortunately, mine and others are so rooted in psychosis and madness it’s hard to make sense of it if any sense in a delusional state – not just a single delusion.
I invoked many worlds theory, simulation theory, aliens, time travel, immortality, trans-humanism, the singularity, etc. and I just ended up thinking it’s all spiritual or I’m a freaking genius and a victim with no end to sight.
I believe I have a mild case of autism so I can logically deduce or rationalize or see through the evil, psychotic mess and ties and networks of psychosis. Mine is rooted in trauma, experiments, and evil aliens, unfortunately.
I tried to boil it all down to science and physics but it doesn’t really make sense so I think I’m a lunatic pretty much and just point to my religion mostly with the help of my mom…
For example, last night I told my mom that either the Bible is wrong or I’m not entirely human. She said I may have seen a glimpse of the spirit world 9 years ago when I got really sick perhaps by the grace of God…I had a NDE.
I guess the spirit world is immortal?
I don’t like talking about some stuff at all anymore. It just disables me and I became sick. I do take my meds and they help, but I’m trying to move on slowly and get better in my own unique way.
In college, I’m pretty sure I saw a ARV (ufo) abduct me or come after me or monitor me which in itself requires a lot of resources and time and money and risk, but then again, that goes against common notions and wisdom, and I think they probably know that. Then again in 2016, I saw another alien replica vehicle(s) over my house and it got inside my head (I was off meds at the time healing from NMS). Nobody cares or saw it. It could have advanced invisibility or camo or anti-camera technology and other effects.
They used to call me a super soldier in a past life, I guess. I know a lot about alien telepathy, time travel, aliens, and other things that I have personally seen in my past lives and still remember…
It ain’t cheap, but these guys got nearly an infinite amount of money. We’re talking several trillions, which makes it uncomfortable for most.
What I don’t understand is how I keep coming back alive and remember some infinite quantum memory ■■■■ and have all this trauma that nobody knows or sees. It’s something out of a movie with deja vu and fear and trauma.
Maybe I’m not entirely human because I sincerely believe we live in either a computer simulation that could be isomorphic to the real thing; I escaped it a few times if we talk about eternity; and I interacted with people like Philip k dick I think back in time via the computer.
The cloning aspect is the sick part as well as consciousness transfer. Donald marshall says it cost $30 to clone someone. Imagine someone like Musk worth 100 billion dollars, that’s a lot of clones. Now factor in the multi-verse and time travel and quantum physics. He’s basically an immortal god/trillionaire already.
It never ends, at least for me.