Im terrified. I don’t know where to start because I feel you guys maybe in kn it. Its very stressful and im not on meds. I want to die and go to neither heaven or hell I Jess want to sleep forever
ellistywan. i think you better contact your pdoc. seems to me you need meds like most of us here.
good luck. judy
@Ellistywan You have common symptoms that can be improved with meds. Meds I think are the only way so find a dr stat and tell him everything
I’ve been wondering if I was the anti-Christ before. I sure would be a pathetic anti-Christ, though.
Yeah I thought I was the devil and had walked through hell and was going to pop out on the bottom of the ocean.
Meds will relieve you of your stress
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Moved to Unusual Beliefs.
Jess as I was Forming how to say this in my head someone beeped a horn at five in the morning. Everytime I get on this topic they let me know their tuned in usually by horns sometimes people laugh when there’s no one. Or nothing around to laugh at. Hell lately they’ve been yelling out exactly what holes through my head tkt scare .me. What I am about to say is pretty graphic but there’s a cult set up in DC with plans to gangrape me…smh its sounds pretty sick or farout but its true I can’t trust anyone
I used to hear people whistling and it drove me mad. I’d pick up on every whistle as I passed people and it was frequent. Now I actually think I might have hallucinated the whistles, but who knows. Freaked me out cause they were whistling for me like some signal I was there. So freaky
Did the whistling trigger a negative thought?
Triggered paranoia. I’ve spent my whole life trying to be/stay positive so I don’t get a lot of negative thoughts. Not saying none. Like I got some saying I deserve “a good swift kick in the head”. But I tell them to be nice
Wish it was that simple for me. No matter how positive I set my mind. As soon as I get in public they poor negative horrors right back into my head…hey what city are you in?
City is a little too personal but I’m in Portugal, you? State?
D.C and I want out a.s.a.p. but I have no money smh
I thought I was going to be gang raped as well but by all the male hospital staff, not a cult. I even lay wide awake on my first night there with a juice box straw hidden up the sleeve of my pyjamas in case I needed to jam it in someone’s eye. I laugh about it now. Thankfully it didn’t happen and it never was going to happen, I just thought it was because I was going through psychosis
Did people tend to make sounds or stare at you kind of weird when you thought about it
Yeah I used to walk down the street and think people were talking about me and laughing at me
And yeah weird ■■■■ would happen like I would think about something and then it would happen or someone would say what I I just thought
Well I was convinced for three years that people could read my mind but I didn’t really believe I was the devil or anything. I know how rough it can be though.
How did you recover? What type of experiences lead you to believe they could here you in the first place
Basically, I just pulled myself out of the belief but I was in that place for three years which disabled me greatly. And now I am finding it tough to find work given the gaps in my employment history.
Basically, I was reading alot about conspiracy theories, dystopian fiction, Bible Prophecy (Book of Revelation), etc. and I twittered David de Rothschild of the infamous Rothschild family and BAM for some reason I thought I was under intense surveillance at the hands of the Rothschild Family to the point they could read my mind through whatever dark technology they had in their possession. And from there it extended to much of humanity. And I developed Ideas of Reference where the tv/radio/internet tracked, monitored, and sent special messages to me. It was a combination of what I was reading, and my imagination.
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