I rarely have any form of auditory hallucination, but constant shifting, halos around objects, visual static and trouble focusing my eyes are always present to a varying degree, as well as some other things that are hard to explain
I used to see black shadows that gave me panic attacks, but while psychotic I saw beings of light, shadows of animals, mostly sea creatures and things kinda distorted, also had a visual (that I thought was an acid flashback) that everything was 2d, like I was walking inside of a photograph, since I thought it was the lsd I kinda rolled with it and it passed.
My visual hallucinations distort my perception of the environment, so far at least I haven’t seen anything that isn’t there. Everything always moves though, without fail, for at least the past month in a noticeable way. It’s kinda like being on a mild dose of acid that isn’t colorful and makes you sad.
It’s really not fun at work, driving all day. The road tilts slightly, as if it’s a large, very narrow boat i’m driving along
In my last episode I had some visual stuff going on, but not quite hallucinations in the sense of seeing something that is totally not there. It was more a perception of meaning where there is very little, or seeing a different meaning than usually. For instance clouds. Every cloud would be perceived as a clearly pronounced figure, though I am pretty sure there were actual clouds. It was just that they get heavily interpretated as meaningful figures. Similarly, I would misread words on signs and subtitles, reading them as meaning something else when glanced at quickly. On a second more thoughtful glance, I would perceive them as they are supposed to be, with them making sense in the context they were presented in. I think such might be the beginnings of actual visual hallucinations where the meaningful perception is even more off from the thing thats actually there, and delusions of reference, where a second glance won’t correct it anymore.
This is the most frustrating thing ever. I have no frame of reference, it’s different for everyone, I just know that I feel sick, and this is not normal. I don’t know yet know how to tell how well i’m doing at any given time, and the more I try to figure that out the worse I feel
I’m almost praying for a break so I can understand a little better, you know? It’s like I have a cup that is full to an indefinite point and I don’t know where full is, it’s confusing and it wrecks my peace of mind. I know that i’m getting worse, but I don’t know know what that means, I have nothing to compare it to
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I’ve been getting angry a lot recently too.
After you start the meds you’ll see some change, since you caught it early I’m hoping for a better outcome than some of us
Have you ever done hallucinogens? I suffer from HPPD and it is similar to what you describe.
I have, but i’m very familiar with HPPD and it was very different, and it fades over time, it doesn’t get worse.
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I have never done hallucinogens and I get similar visual hallucinations.
I used to do a lot of hallucinogens, I remember HPPD, but it wasn’t like this, and this didn’t start becoming noticeable until after having not touched anything for half a year. I’m 20 years old and have some of the genetic risk factors in my family
I have a lot of trouble doing math now, a year and I half ago I signed up for the navy in the nuclear program, man. I hate this. It makes me so upset.
Oh, i’ve also been having night terrors sporadically.
That sucks man I’m sorry, this illness sucks
Murphy’s law or something, I guess.
For auditory hallucinations, do you hear them the same way you hear sounds?
Well, experience, I suppose.
I don’t have auditory hallucinations, I have more of internal voices, like thoughts, mine and other people’s
See, that’s where the difficulty comes in, like what the ■■■■ is a thought? How do I know what normal is? Catching it early is horrible. Absolutely no peace of mind, I think about it constantly, i’m on edge all the time, worrying about it. It’s so hard to relax.
I struggle with the same questions. I think at some point, we just learn how to deal with it