My symptoms coming back. I want to isolate, but at the same time I want to cry out. I’m in tears because the voices and the feelings of paranoia are overwhelming. I’m trying to distract myself, but I can’t shake it. I don’t want to go back to the hospital and I don’t want to bother my family and friends. Why am I cursed with this? Why can’t I ever be better? Is this why others run away from me? I’m too much to handle. I’m an embarrassment. And I don’t want to end up in a “last chance” hold.
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Sorry you are feeling so bad. Try to stay calm…dont think of catastrophes. You can still curb this. What helped you get out of this state before? Can you ask for help?
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Remain calm and contact your doctor, if not then go to the ER if things get out of control.
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The last thing that helped was Seroquel, but it stopped working. I was actually content on that med. Now on Invega I feel horrible again. I feel like I’m coming in and out of it.
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It is a shame that invega isnt working as it should. For how long have you tried it? Is there another med you can try? Or a prn med for the worst moments?
Maybe calming techniques help as well?
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I only have my Ativan. I’ve played loud music and kind of busted my ear drums. I told my husband, he made me a quick appointment to see my pdoc at 4:00. I hope he can help.
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Ah, well done you. You took the right steps. Your husband and pdoc will help you get out of this. Hope you can find a bit of trust somewhere that it will be allright. How long to go till 4?? Can you do something to occupy your mind? For me, making sudokus or math puzzles helps a bit at times…they say it makes you switch to your “rational brain”. Who knows, it might help you…
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It’s 2:47 right now. I’m going to watch a documentary about food right now to see if I can keep distracting myself. Sudoku sounds fun.
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Ah that is not too long (though it probably is long to you). Good idea, the docu. Lots of strength!
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Thank you @anon73478309 & @Vertigo
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Since my last hospital stay. I have higher dose of risperidone and Zoloft and nightmare med. They figured out I was having PTSD problems from sexual abuse when I was young child. Now we are working on that issue. To me it seems the PTSD was triggering my schizophrenia and vice versa. I starting to see an improvement.
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Hey, how are you now? Did the pdoc have anything useful to say?
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Hey i’m here for ya if you wanna talk. Try music it always helps me. Find a favorite song and put it on repeat till you feel calm.
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@anon73478309 @Longhorn21 hey everyone. I finally slept the whole night. I’m not hearing anything. So I’m doing alright now. Thank you for being here for me. 
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Thats great! How did you do that?
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He upped my Invega and Ativan. I immediately went to bed and turned all my devices off. I just lay there til I fell asleep. I also cuddled up with my youngest. She slept with me because my husband was on call at the hospital. I slept like a baby.
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Very good, @Cici2.
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What mg of Seroquel were you taking? I thought maybe the pdoc could raise the mg if Seroquel. Probably too late. I’ve not had invega. Insurance company does not like new expensive new drugs.
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I was on 800mg.
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Holy cow. I don’t miss Seroquel. I hope you get the help you need .
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