I can’t even put into words mentally where I’m at. I’m just not doing well. Depression has seeped into my bones. The delusions and paranoia are at the surface, screaming at me.
Ive been staying at familys the past 3 days since i doubt i should be home alone right now. In case it gets too dark inside.
I dont know if its due to quitting effexor and geodon(with psych approval and urging). Or if im just breaking down again.
I have therapy tomorrow, thankfully. And i took my prn tonight. Trying to stay afloat until my psych appointment next tuesday.
Just needed to verbal vomit a bit. Im just trying my best and its like im going backwards.
Good you’ve people around you. Effexor is known for a pretty big withdrawal especially if you were on a high dose. I miss a dose of it and I know about it. Hang in there and keep your treatment team involved.
Book earlier appointment if feel like you need it, I currently filling out an application online for health insurance, if I get rejected I won’t be able afford see Pdoc for quite sometime.
Coming off a med, particularly an antipsychotic can be an arduous experience. Keep your therapist fully informed. Talk to a pdoc about it, if one is available. Just remember, things can get better. It doesn’t always have to be this way.
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i feel you, its very very difficult when you realize.