sorry about talking about a job, its probably the last thing you want to hear,
esp if you are really unwell and find it difficult to do even the simplist things bc i was like that once and i know what its like, i couldnt go outside i was too paranoid, i couldnt do anything as it was too stress full and everything was just too much, i had to rely on my mum and dad to get things and i would spend hours in my room and i just hated it, i wasnt getting better i was just kinda stuck in sz land, the only time i got out was with a group and we went bowling and to play pool but it wasnt often just maybe once a week for an hour.
then i met my friend sweep and we helped each other a lot (i think she helped me more) and things were better then, she had a car and we went out a lot more (it was easier going out with her because she made me feel safer) the paranoia wasnt as bad when she was there.
then 3-4 years ago i had a med change and things got even better, i didnt have the flat effect anymore and i was smiling for the first time in ages and it just got better right up until now and thats why my main goal is to get a job bc that is my way of saying to the world that i have beaten this ■■■■ (even if i do still have to take medication) its still me saying to everyone i beat this ■■■■.
so i’m sorry for going on about this but i just felt that i had to explain myself, i know it is short but its hard trying to compress everything in 12 years into just a couple of paragraphs,
whatever you are doing just now to get better keep it up, every little thing counts and it all adds up