Im tired of staying up half the night having all my past mistakes flash before me. I’m tired of being a recluse because of thinking everyone is against me and knows how to twist my neurons to their advantage. I’m tired of forgetting how to talk to people with my personality because i am a recluse. I’m tired of roommates thinking what is wrong with him because i never leave the apartment other then school and food. I’m tired of sitting in a group where everyone is vulnerable and I can’t include myself because I can’t find the words to describe my situation. I’m tired of hearing how much I suck at life and how i deserve all the pain. I’m tired of feeling like I’ve lost my soul and I’m just an empty sack of carbon. I’m tired of looking in the mirror and seeing cold death. I’m tired of this burden and i don’t know how to change it
I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. I know you’re just venting, but those feelings will pass eventually.
You’ll find ways to change or to deal with those things. I’m sure of it.
Yea i know. But after a week of reflection and a few months of bottling everything up because I’m too busy to work on myself its starting to seep out a little. But thanks for the support
Have you considered talking about this in group therapy? Maybe it will help you put your thoughts into words.
Thats my problem I can never seem to open up about it. I always find I’m at a loss for words in summarizing whats going on with me in those settings. I want to contribute but somethings holding me back
You should take the best out of it, for yourself. Otherwise you’re just going there to hear other peoples life problems. When I had trouble opening up I started with “I’m having a problem putting my problems into words” … the rest often comes right after 
Good advice I might try that even if we only meet one more time this semester.
Hey kazuma,your a cool person.I am at my down moment currently,can you do something to distract yourself?
Yea i usually read or play video games to distract myself
Hi. You described just how I feel. Been up most the night too.Just can’t focus on anything! Wished I could help you.
What about writing things down-keeping a journal.
You could write in it at night-maybe it would help you to wind down.