whatever gene the abilify turns off when it turns on its like it opens a portal to the spirits. strange things happen; things put in places that no one put them…notes written that no one wrote…messages or symbols appearing on mirrors…objects flying or dropping off tables when no one moved them…nightmares of stuff that makes me feel possessed, tactile nightmares…
there is no explanation for what happens. doors locking me in from outside…a note that said magic on a black piece of paper and dolls in the cereal cabinet…my hallucinations would make me feel like I was living in a simulation, I could see things in 2D and 4D and move things with my mind, electronics acting up, hearing low frequencies…
so is this a Gift or something that I should hide from the world? since the house has been renovated there is much less activity though. The floors and walls have all been redone. But the memory still persists of that nightmarish trip to a cabin in the hills and coming home to find the house in disarray as if little fairies had taken over.
it was happening while at the cabin out in greenbank. My grandpa sold the cabin. It was an old cabin. My mom was screaming on the phone because we did a three way call and I guess it confused her because she heard my aunt who had called…but she freaked out and then the doors locked my brothe in from outside, and my mom was trying to open the door.
Straight outta a paranormal horror film. So a part of me is wishful thinking that my supernatural powers will come back if i stop the meds. But a part of me worries about the under-side of it being that if the door is open to the otherside there are elements I dont want in. Thats what led me to Wicca/Witchcraft and learning to harness energy and ward against bad entities.\
there are good fae too. It was like a war had gone on between the good and bad fae and played out in my house while we were on vacation. I found an old heart ornament stuck together with candy, a bunch of jolly rancher candy that had been used to put things together it was so strange!!
Maybe the medication doesnt have to do with it. I think I have control over my powers now though that I dont really need to be medicated for life. I would like to be able to better raise my energy.
Maybe I should just focus on mindfulness and continue taking abilify since every time I go off it I start to have unusual dreams that tell me I should continue to take them. I wonder sometimes if that I should listen to anything fear-based…
I believe fear-based thinking is essential to an oppressive regime and the US is a backsliding democracy so maybe there’s no room anymore for my soul to shine in this society. Im considering moving to Ireland…almost wrote back to Ireland. Thats where my soul is calling me back home.
My main issue is tactile hallucinations/during sleep paralysis. I managed to get rid of the shadow-thing/but can you really get rid of something thats primal/part of the human nature and DNA?
There is a lot people just dont understand. Some things that scare people are not that scary when you see it from another more evolved perspective.
I believe you, because I’ve had interesting experiences myself, including visiting parallel realities at least twice. It’s either real or it’s delirium, because only delirium can be so real and immersive (eg. you can smoke “air cigarettes” as if they’re real). I think there is simply more to reality than conventional science and wisdom would have you believe. Strange things can happen, and there’s ultimately nothing supernatural about it – it’s just part of a more complete science that we may never attain, but quantum physics and string theory seem to be making inroads into advancing our understanding in interesting ways.
@anon69073975 A lot of the Neo Pagan \ Heathenry practices evokes these sorts of experiences. I have been a part of various groups in an effort to understand the breadth and width of the archaic revival (a term used by the late Terrance McKenna in reference these modern interpretations of old practices).
First of all going directly off drugs (any sort) with out assistance from a doctor is not wise. If done so, it must be in stages. Additionally, apparently you have invited some activity into your experience and perceptions and you need to have assistance from people who specialize in such situations. Do not ruminate on the paranormal, wish for it again or to be in that position, no matter how good it felt. Additionally, do not feed your fears, just stop empowering it with aversion or seeking.
To many people are getting caught in this stuff these days without a clue of what is going on. Gardner and others like him were really unwise to unleash this to the general population.