Current fears

im being hacked
im being stalked
people are trying to find out where i live
the authorities are gonna do something terrible to me
i can see visions of people i know talking trash on me in the future
i can see their current thoughts (i think, might be future)
i need get outta here

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the worst thing to do is to suddenly leave if ur in that state of mind. I’ve gotten myself into situations where I listened to my false beliefs and let them guide me. Some things just have no explanation, sometimes we have to accept things that dont make sense but not let the fear consume us. I know thats easier said than done.

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Paperflowers have beautiful minds and souls.
Relevant I’d those thoughts at first in my illness and you’re a very likable person I wish out of harm so please listen.
You Need more meds to get over your fears. Yes I know that every meds has its set of side effects.
Please contact you house doc and get appointment as soon as possible.

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ill think about it. my dr moved so id have to find a new one :frowning:

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Why did you stop your haldol? Thats probably why you have symptoms now

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cause i was afraid it was affecting my heart mixed with abilify

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If its prescribed by your dr i wouldnt worry about it

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If there was an interaction your dr wouldnt have mixed them together

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the haldol seems to work 50% and makes me restless, the abilify seems to work 50%…but i dont wanna mix em again. so idk…maybe i should stop the abilify and go back to haldol. idk how long my primary doc will keep prescribing it for

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There are meds for that, you said you only take 5mg abilify thats not enough for sz and much weaker than 6mg haldol

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yeah. i was still having symtoms on 6mg haldol. the benztropin stopped the wrestlessness. then when i mixed haldol and abilify i felt great. then on just abilify im having symptoms again. so the only sollutions i see is to take more than 6mg haldol, or mix them, or take more than 5mg abilify. but for most of that i will need a neew doc and i got extreme fear of doctors and people in general. but i also dont wanna lose my SSI by not seeing a doctor.

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I’ve learned that Haldol and Clopixol are much better than Abilify for psychosis. And Abilify is rather weak compared to those.

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i got a really bad delusion on 6mg haldol that went away when i mixed it with abilify but now its coming back. i kinda miss being able to sleep on the haldol. but i also feel happier on the abilify so idk

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id mix em again but i had inverted t waves and once my heart really went off and was beating scarily weird (that may have been from a cold drink tho)

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maybe i should just go back on the haldol and raise the dose…i horded it when i wasnt taking it so i got like a years worth prob at maybe 8 mg…or maybe 8 months at 10mg…idk i should count it

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Please reconsider Haldol as soon as possible because Clopixol has done me well in regards to psychosis the last 30 years.

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i could prob do 8 or 10mg with benztropine. i dont have as much benztropine stored tho. prob only a few months :frowning: 5mg abilify is equal to 2mg haldol so maybe 8mg haldol would be enough

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I think you are right. When I look back in time I remember you as high functioning in the past on Haldol.

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I have worried about similar things and know it won’t help to tell you those things likely aren’t real, so instead I’ll share something I realized lately.

I’ve had a few things I was paranoid about actually happen when I wasn’t worried about them anymore and it was not nearly as bad as I thought it’d be. To tell you the truth, looking back I see there was not something specific I feared, only fear itself without any logic behind it.

Although I believe the only thing to fix paranoia is meds, I hope my realization can give you some comfort. I’ve noticed I have really low tolerance to stress and uncertainty, so I’m trying to get better at living with some conflict and the possibility things go wrong without losing my mind over it. In the end, even if bad things happen we can always try to fight to make them better is what I’ll try to keep in mind if I get paranoid again. Though not a solution maybe thinking that way might make you feel better too.

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8 or 10mg of benztropine daily? I was prescribed 2mg a day at its height. I took six once with the idea of maybe attempting an overdose. It was no fun. I was tripping out for three days.

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