I’m feeling a bit better for now.
Yesterday was awful!
Out of the blue my moods crashed and I had these dark thoughts come to the surface!
I couldn’t stop sobbing.
I’m still depressed but I think I’m now for the time being out of the danger zone.
Still going to ask my psychiatrist whenever she calls to get back on a mood stabilizing medication.
Thanks for the support!
So glad to hear that you’re feeling better 
Thanks for your support @anon2818416!
Any time, friend
glad to hear you doing a bit better…
I hope you keep improving.
But i think it’s good that you gonna ask to be put back on the mood stabilizer.
Do you really think I need to be on a mood stabilizer @lekkerhondje?
i’m not sure but i think it’s worth a shot to see if it improves you by taking away the dark thoughts.
How often do you get dark thoughts?
Glad you’re feeling a little bit better @Wave . Take care of yourself.
What I mean by dark thoughts are actually suicidal thoughts.
I normally don’t have them but a few days ago my depression hit me fast and deep and I had suicidal thinking for a few hours.
Normally I’m not suicidal.
Thanks @Bowens 15
That’s good that you are feeling better. I’m really glad to hear it.
Thanks @anon66864989 155
yea that is not good… suicidal thoughts are the worst really… i struggled with them long time but now since last time psych ward i got better.
I think it’s worth trying the mood stabilizer for sure. Or at least discuss it with your pdoc to see what he/she thinks.
Let your Dr know that you had these suicidal thoughts then they disappeared. See what he thinks.
Yeah I will.
I’m upset with my doctor.
She hasn’t gotten back to me after I mentioned that I had suicidal thoughts.
I see her later today but she should really have contacted me a couple of days ago when things were bad.
Yes I will.
Thanks @Aziz
yea it sucks that she didn’t contact you back when you were feeling suicidal… it’s good that you see her today though… When i get bad i always contact my gp doc first cause she is easier to get a hold of.
In 2012 I had strong suicidal thoughts for months. My pdoc then put me on Lamotragine for a mood stabilizer. I’ve been on it ever since.
I would really consider to go back on a mood stabilizer if I were you.
Yes thanks @Fellowman
I’m so sorry to hear that you were suicidal for a while. It’s normal to get suicidal every now and then. The point is it doesn’t last.
When you were suicidal, did you have a definite, concrete plan for ending your life? That question is important. And I’m sure your pdoc will want to know the answer.
Years ago, I was suicidal with plans, for many years, 24/7. I know what it’s like.