Why do I always feel I’m a terrible person. It’s cos I am. And it’s not the illness. I have to take full responsibility.
Maybe you’re being overcritical?
Why do you think you’re a bad person?
The first step is accepting you have a problem (if indeed you do have a problem and are not being to self critical), that’s hard.
The good news is that now you can get to work improving yourself!
I don’t know. I just don’t feel great. When I first got diagnosed I sent this person like 1000s of emails I couldnt stop. I feel bad I did it.
You were sick back then, you weren’t yourself. Anyways its nothing bad sending 1000 emails, I have done much worse during psychosis. I try to forget it as now I don’t do these anymore. Thinking about them will just make me miserable. Focus on the present.
Then in my second episode I proceeded to add 5000 people on Facebook… I really hope I didn’t contact anyone directly I was quite out of it … but as you say I wasn’t well … And I shut down Facebook my trigger
Have you read Arabian Nights?
A collection of 1001 oriental stories.
Maybe in the future the person you’ve sent 1k emails to will get inspired by them to write a memorable story.
I had to learn not to hold things I did when I was sick against myself…I did some bad things while delusional…it was the illness that made me do it…it wasn’t me…
If you feel bad that might not be good person -
then I tend to think you might be a good person.
Feelings aren’t fact. What facts prove that you are not good or terrible?
Dear ish, I really think you haven’t done terrible things or are a bad person. What you describe isn’t bad at all. You weren’t hurting people or trying to do bad to them.
Take a good hard look at the world. There are people doing horrible, terrible, gruelsome things. Allover the place. I don’t feel you are one of them.
I often feel really bad about myself too (and for worse things than you tell about here). It doesn’t help me at all to be a better person if I beat myself up over past mistakes though. Yours aren’t terrible if it’s what you tell here. You seem like a really gentle and thoughtful person, not at all meanspirited.
Well, none of us are perfect but I’ve seen you on here for years and I don’t see much evidence that you’re a bad person. A few mistakes and errors of judgement while psychotic doesn’t make someone a bad person. I know you might have some problems with your boyfriend but he sounds like a good guy and he wouldn’t be with you this long if you were a terrible person.
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