I like @signless @Joker @Truemist8 @LilyoftheValley @jukebox etc… sorry but nobody has anything in common with me. I’m sorry i’m so dull. I live a reclusive lifestyle because i can’t cope with anything more than that. My hubby is sick. We’re poor. I’m sick with schizophrenia
and I get triggered and wish some people would put trigger warning TW at topic heading.
Thanks for reading
It feels like a lot of you here are a lot more capable and moving on with life with such speed. Careers , education at university. Nothing is holding you back
I’m sorry you feel that way. It’s hard feeling like no one understands or relates to you. I spent 10 years not doing anything but sitting on my couch so I do understand not having an eventful life. Others here have similar issues. I’m not trying to downplay how you feel. I just want you to know you’re not as alone as you feel. I hope you stick around.
I am pushing through days. I may be fired any time!
But until then keep trying keep moving.
Like flowing water that can cut through mountains if we just direct the flow.
Thanks @LilyoftheValley i’m feeling different to people here a stark difference. I met a 90 yr old walking in the park today and she talked none stop. I had nothing really to say except to smile and nod. I feel a social outsider tbh. I cant even handle the anxiety of my brother and his family visiting. Im like this all the time but its my life and i do what i can manage
i’m sorry you feel so down…maybe put on music for yourself?
I used to feel that way @anon70282812 . I had very little to talk about, and too poor to spend money on changing that situation. Plus I was too afraid to leave home. It was an awful feeling. I still struggle with finding enough to talk about in social situations. I’m so sorry you’re struggling so much 
Thankyou for relating and understanding, it makes me feel hopeful that things can change and feel less alone
Anytime. You’re a good soul and you deserve happiness
You too
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I’ve been feeling like an outcast at my clubhouse since I got home after 3 months away in the hospital. There’s suddenly a bunch of people there I’ve never met and don’t know their names, and I even feel weird around my friends there that I do know. I’m the sitting president of my clubhouse but haven’t been able to participate in board meetings while away. So I feel like a loser. And trying to meet new people is awkward and makes me uncomfortable…I just withdraw. I’m relatively poor, too, except for the money I keep in an emergency fund for things like car repairs. So I don’t go to social events or anything that costs a lot of money. I know how you feel. Please stay on the forum…many people relate to you and read your posts, even if they don’t reply. We’d miss you if you left!
Im sorry your feeling kinda strange since your hospital stay. I hope things get easier for you in the coming weeks. Thanks for relating it means a lot. Take care, goodnight. Im going to bed now.
I’m praying that you will feel better…hope you do soon…feel bad for you.
Wow!
I relate to that.
Ive been social outsider pretty much all me life.
Even the other outsiders dont want me as friend (n i dont want crime n drama )
I get bully vibed .
By everyonr of most but better in new neighbourhood.
much nicer viben people here it seems.
Other place i was always a hated excluded loner shadow didnt feel like self as energy colours etc taken felt while they all had fake light ir stolen n mean spirits with fakenezz etc
Even there so callled womans support groups frlt opressice and excludinv n that they started treatinv ne differently n strangely etc
Thank fully i attended a candle make group with fabulous group leader n some true beautzzz.
It sucks.
Keep the faith.
Connection n understanding n awesome healthy loving suportive relationships with self n others comin i reckon.
Having a job is extremely difficult, it may sound easy when I talk about it but it’s not. And I’m sure all of us with jobs still struggle. And when I’m not at my job I deal with schizophrenia like anyone else here and it’s not pleasant. I see you as someone with a strong personality who people show respect to. I’m sorry you feel you don’t relate to people here, most people don’t lord their successes over anybody and don’t act like they’re better than everyone else. The thing that keeps this community going and makes it such a nice place is we can all relate to each other because we know what having schizophrenia is like, that’s our most important common ground.
Every single one of us knows what’s like to suffer and feel hopeless. Many of us who work now or go to school had serious doubts about doing it beforehand. I think we all went through periods where it was hard to just get out of the house and go out in public. You have more in common with people here than you think. To paraphrase Bob Dylan, “Those who are down now will later be up.” I’m sorry you feel the way you do but I think you can relate to people on a purely human level.
You are right @77nick77 and it was callous of me to say people seem to succeed at great speed.
But i cant relate to anyone. I feel a loner in the world, a stranger. My anhedonia is the cause because i cant feel connected to anyone
If i change meds i risk being more unstable
I cant relate to anyone
I feel sorry for my husband being sick but i still dont feel connected to him
I cant feel any love for anyone, myself , my parents noone, and i still care about people but i dont feel connected emotionally at all. Its been like this for approx 6 years on clopixol depot
On abilify depot i was more emotional but had severe struggles still. But im no doctor? What do i know?
oh how awful… I wonder why that is?? no love in your heart? no hope? no wonder you’re upset.
The pdoc says its either negatives from sz or trauma related. But im thinking its more likely the clopixol idk?