I had no voices on clopixol, but no emotions at all. I am on risperidone and quietiapine now. I’m trying to give up caffiene even though it gives me emotions, cause it makes me too anxious. Unsure how that will go..
Maybe try swutching meds, wishing you all the best Ducky.
I feel lost and devoid of any non shallow purpose, myself.
Thanks @DNAsaur
oh I wish there was something I could say to cheer you up just a little bit even…don’t give up.
Clopixol isnt available in the USA where you are AND your excellent med isnt available here in UK
Life sucks Lol
aw dangit…that is horrible…
I am truly confused and in pain. Life does suck. I so wished I was never born. I am so stupid with sex addiction. I do struggle with suicide issues. I thought people here would rather see me succeed. So I try to show I am recovering. I just want to be left alone for months. I will be ok but I have pain and just wish I never ever came into existence.
Im sorry your suffering @Trooper and youve just lost your parents. I hope your getting enough support out there. Please keep us updated and keep reaching out.
@Truemist8 sorry youve been dealt such a difficult hand in life. I know family can suck. I truly hope you have some happiness in life. We all deserve to feel happy.
Career - never had one. Further education /university- not enough help and support to have made it a viable option. No friends IRL. Dull? More so than not. The internet me is very different from the offline me when it comes to functioning.
Thank you so kindly. I try to say positive things about myself but it’s like I’m being an arrogant a hole. I know people want to hear positive things. But deep down I’m hurting. I tried therapy and he just told me life is hard and it almost sealed the deal for me to suffer. And accept suffering is what life is. I’m trying to be happy. But in honesty I’m wrestling with something deep inside me that I don’t know how to accept.
Seems like your in deep bereavement and grief. It must have come as a shock to your whole being losing both your parents recently. You dont need to be like anything , except yourself and true to your feelings. My deepest sympathies to you and your loved ones. Keep reaching out, take whatever help is offered and look after yourself @Trooper
I feel like a total s*** f***. For the addictions I’m engaging in and have been since I can remember. To the honor of my parents. I had to hide addictions from my parents their whole life from them. I feel I’m being punished now and forever. I’m defeated. I’m ruled and forced to be under the authority and Truth of my delusions. I don’t want to drag anybody down into my delusions or trigger them. I apologize. But I don’t want to Glory over anybody here. We’re all dealing with this schizophrenia stuff. I don’t want to burden anybody either. I know people care. I know they can and are doing all they can for me. It’s all on me. I take it personally. I respect everybody here and please don’t let any of my old crap make you suffer in any way. I wish I could help people like they help me here
You need to go to the doctors and get help with your addictions. Taking illegal substances makes everything a lot harder. You just need support. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself take it one day at a time
@Ninjastar @HollyHobbie @ThePickinSkunk @Voithos
I think @Trooper needs more support can you suggest anything?
I’m making it through fine. One day at a time really helps. Sorry if I’m derailing your threat @anon70282812.
No your absolutely fine, im sorry im not able to suggest anything more useful
Just in case @Trooper you can text or call 988 if you’re feeling suicidal. I tried copying over a suicide post, but my phone isn’t allowing it right now.
I know how it feels ducky 
… we have the strength to manage. Hope your feeling a little better today 
I always say that life gave me lemons so I make lemonade. Try to find a purpose for life if you can and remember that our lives are what we make of them. Nobody else can make us happy. We have to work at finding our own happiness. (Hug)
Thank you @anon70282812 .
Back at ya. 
Hope you have good support @Trooper .
Sorry to hear of your loss.
Love and good prayers n wishes to n for you.
