So I just got in a fight with my dad because he refused to let me smoke weed because he said I have a substance use problem. I was upset because of conspiracies all over the internet saying that Bill Gates caused the virus, that it isn’t real, that it’s a bioweapon or manmade, that they’re gonna chip or track us with a vaccine or scan us, or try to barcode our foreheads. These are paranoid delusions I’ve had all my life. Of a pandemic, of a virus, of a future where we are chipped and tracked because when I was at my dad’s office when I was seventeen I found all these healthcare magazines. The front of the magazine showed two robot looking people “The future of Technology in Medicine” and it had barcodes on their foreheads. So I was manic already, had withdrawn off my medication, and had an episode which involved aquiring my therapist notes and hospital records/ also very upsetting. Realizing what they had done. I believed that in the future people with mental illness would be the most targeted by these corporations experimenting with surviellance technology.
I have dreams that come true all the time. So If my dreams predict the future, and I am at odds with authority, and no one believes in being psychic then what the heck am I supposed to do if I’m being forced to take pills that only make me upset. I don’t have hallucinations or delusions. Unless believing something bad could happen n the future based on a dream is a delusion. My mom was a peace activist, she protested WHINSEC. She was arrested. No one knew how she suddenly got all the way to Georgia. Just a lot of stuff I notice that others don’t and that if they aren’t explained no one will ever know. Most of what I believe are nearly explainable by science and based on evidential experience.
So if I am psychic and have insight, would it be more likely I was targeted based on some kind of insight say if the virus was manmade and they really were planning all these technology advancements and I just made them more obvious by putting them to a different perspective that people didn’t like. So they freaked me out and did things in order to make sure it wouldn’t get negative attention. Like schizophrenia I am so sick of this i really don’t believe in the illness because it doesn’t match my worldview anymore. I can’t fit it into my life I can’t apply it anymore. I take happy pills. That’s the extent of it. I’m done with Aristada and the headaches.
But I’m not allowed to smoke weed. My mom’s gonna order me CBD so I hope that helps with the chemical withdrawal. You know, preventing seizures and such.
I tried CBD gummy bears and I didn’t like them at all. I only had 2 or something. I feel like I’m sensitive to things and react quickly.
I definitely enjoy and entertain myself with conspiracies, but I have learned that I am helpless and not to care. I just accept it and find it fascinating and interesting.
I have delusions, but sometimes people go overboard with accusing people that they are delusional or tin foil hat people or cranks. It’s probably a defense mechanism or they are projecting. I don’t know.
I am obsessed about 2011-2013 like I had something profound affect my life that changed it for the worse permanently. I feel I should talk about it because I can’t live in fear and that it sort of helps, despite the naysayers and that I annoy people and just obsess over it every day. I feel like I shouldn’t have this disease and that it was given to me. I so strongly believe in this. I feel like it’s not my destiny to have schizophrenia. I guess it’s bad genetics? Poor choices in life?
I just feel like I’m in a time loop constantly reseting and reincarnating with permanent, eternal schizophrenia and that I cannot change my past at all. I tried many times. I cannot undo it and it feels very fake and artificial.
I don’t know if you seen the movie trailer “tenet” but instead of inversion of small items, my whole life feels like it’s time inversion. I felt like if I die, I just go back in time to the year 2011-2013 and the universe resets to that year. It happens all the time.
I find it healthy to not watch conspiracy theories but I am addicted sometimes and very bored.
WOW. Yes. 2013 is when I had the dream that predicted Donald Trump becoming President and the nuclear attack in 2021 and my close friend being murdered all at once. It was a horrible nightmare, but I had the dream repeatedly since then about Trump, the attack, the plan etc. and I don’t know it’s all a blur but for some reason I knew everything he was planning to do years before he TRIED to do them. That’s why I thought he was the antichrist and would try to wage war against psychic people and that’s why people get all into conspiracy theories because you know sometimes bad things happen and no one does anything to prevent them from happening. But if you’re on youtube just talking about it at some point you’re useless just like everyone you hit a brick wall. We have to actually take the power back from the people plotting these false flags and evil conspiracies of control.
No I am definitely psychic. It takes me a little bit of energy. You have to clear your mind, just let the information come to you. It’s definitely harder on all these medications. I don’t have the psychic dreams as much when I’m medicated. I can project the energy I want to. The more I embrace it, the more I can do it. The more I project the words I want to get out the more they do. It’s working. I see it working. I am stopping him. Look at the polls? LMAO. That was all me.