I think this pedophilia thing its because of self stigmatization. But its just a thought for you guys to think about
The more realistic you become the more insight you gain and with insight you will learn to cope with your shortfalls i.e. start to manage your sz with help from your pdoc and therapist
Anna1,
you are not alone in this. I relate very, very…very much to your posts, just want you to know that.
I also get intrusive thoughts that tells me I am a peodophile when I’m amongst children. I believe that this distorted thinking has to do with the fact that I have no children of my own whilst I have no social skills to mix with kids. This feelings put me on a guilt trip and it is then when my mind play these tricks on me. I will never harm any child. I’ll rather protect them from harm. So if I’m amongst kids I just take a deep breath and I tell myself that I know everything will be just fine.
yeah,thats what i do. i take deep breaths but i still suffocate cause i went down deep in my head… i was basically living there for the past 7 years 
You must just believe in yourself and know who you really are and it will get easier for you. Since I told myself I’m better since I am medicated I can easily manage these intrusive thoughts and fullfill my role as a responsible adult.
Girl pedophiles are pretty rare, right? I’m sorry you are afraid of going outside. It pains me to admit it but most people scare the hell out of me. The world goes too fast. I treasure those rare few minutes of peace of mind.