ouch, i dont know for what are serving my aps… i went out with my mom to see a friend of hers,it was ok besides my anhedonia… but after that i sit alone on a bench outside,i was paranoid and panicked,there were kids, i was afraid that i am a pedophile and the others will reject me… it was so intense that i had a head pressure,i was barely breathing etc… ok, as you know, i have years of isolation behind me… i think that docs cant really help me, i dont really want to be drugged anymore. i really tried every psychotic on the market…
on the 12 novembre it will be a month that i am on zyprexa 10 mg… i was wearing sunglasses to hide my eyes. ok,there are lots of crazy people out there but i am fed up. i was really afraid, i could barely walk because of the tension :/…
i suppose ill remain going outside besides this feeling of failure…
Give time for the meds to work. One month is nothing.
You’ll never get better if you dont want to. You need to understand that it takes time, there are no miracles. You are better, believe me. It took a year for the meds to work on me. But they did.
Patience.
ok minniie thanks and i see… i am so impatient because i spent 5 years in the psychiatry, there was nothing else for me… my acquaintances told me that i am junkie because i took all the aps there on the market. plus, in the past, i spent 8 months on zyprexa. it will be my third attempt on it but this time i think i wont change anything more… i am not sure it will work,voila. i have probably panic attacks besides the paranoia.
Panic attacks are when you think you’re going to die. What you have is anxiety. Do you take anti anxiety meds?
yeah, i have rivotril but honestly minnie, should i be drugged with all this? i think outside that i am strange, i f eel uncomfortable when the others are looking at me,i dont know where to look myself…and i have strange feelings in my body then, why feeling my brain plus headaches(probably tension) and the feeling that ill go ntotally nuts. thats all i think, always this impression that i suffocate.
Well I have the same fears. I think we all do.
About the meds, you can always try alternative sources for anxiety like valerian root for example. Its all natural with no side effects. You can buy pills or make tea.
Dont let thhe things your friends say inflence you. You need the medication. You are getting better believe me, even if you dont see it.
ok, thanks,i forgot about the valerian yes. ill take it it could be a solution yes yeah i know now, we all have the same fears. kiss darling
its hard to see happy people out there. i want to feel love, to make sex etc etc… now i should calm down myself and be patient, it sucks…
where i go no-one is crazy, everyone is reading from the same book, had remembrance day today and it went really well besides the rain (someone let me stand under their umbrella with them
I think you should talk to your therapist about this issues. Do you still go to therapy besides your pdoc?
It’s not exactly that simple though could you explain more your definition between the
Two?
In some cases the psychologist is not allowed to prescribe meds.
I’ve had panic attacks like you describe. I still don’t find it easy to be around people, but as I got older I became more content with my isolation. At the assisted living center where I live I have to be around people, but not so much that I can’t handle it. Maybe you could find a way to manage your contacts with others. Go to parks for as long or short a time as you feel like. Go to a movie. You don’t feel isolated there, but the lights are out and no one can see you. See if you can eat out at a pizza buffet. Try to get enough contact that you don’t feel so isolated, but not so much that you can’t handle the anxiety of it.
yeah, ok… i am not sure if ill find the boundary where i get anxious and where not…i am doing the shops sometimes but i spent isolated 13 years, its hard everywhere out there… i just eat my tears right now… i ve lost years and i risk to lost more years also. i know, i dont need regrets right now but nobody didnt love me in this life( i mean a man) and i couldnt love nobody in my turn
You might need to work a little at not being so isolated. The times in my life where I got the worst was when I was totally isolated. I still often find company painful, but I’m glad I have at least some interaction.
i work on it but i get angry, sad, i am a mess…and very often, this feeling that i suffocate. i took a rivotril here,it helped… but i wanna back my feelings,not all this suffering ■■■■…
my mom is saying to me that i’ll never get cured from schizophrenia… she says she is sceptic… she hopes for us but she saw my despair through this 5 years of psychiatry and my negative symptoms… i got paranoid after this talk :/… she also says we have damages in our brains which are irreparables. in fact i am really afraid this days, could it be zyprexa who makes worse my paranoia or it’s just that i am more realistic?
Are you in therapy? Therapy helped my anxiety. I learned grounding techniques and to reality check. For me my anxiety makes my psychosis a lot worse. So adding the Klonopin stopped my panic attacks and calmed my psychosis. Good luck!!
I just wanted to say I am like that…if I’m around kids I think others think I am a pedophile or out to hurt there kids. I generally think everyone is thinking the worse of me. Just wanted to say that.
ok mat, i see. i thought that i am alone. the same thing here…