In the evening I was cleaning my car and no one was around and no one was bothering me but I realized I was very angry. And I also realized that I carry this anger around frequently without being aware of it. I became aware of it because I noticed my anger dissipated at that moment because no one was bugging me at the time. It was very sobering to realize this. I don’t want to be an angry person. But I understood the anger. I live in tight quarters. My city is very large with lots of traffic when I drive. Also, every other person it seems has some kind of angle. Lots of hoods and street people around my vicinity. All this combined makes it very stressful to live here. Especially since I grew up in the nice calm suburbs. This is what fuels my anger.
My simple plan is to get out more, maybe go to the park and relax to get way from it all. Get some space. Last night my anger was almost uncontrollable. I was VERY on edge. Since I am not normally a violent person it was very distressing. It did cross my mind to take it out on someone physically but that’s not me. I didn’t know what to do so I made plans to drive to the park today and bring something to drink (non-alcoholic) and finally get around to listening to that old Adam Sandler comedy CD I have. I woke up feeling much better and I’m OK. I had a nice lunch and connected with some people and I still have time to do my laundry and hit the park.
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The park is definitely soothing and calming. Listening to birds and trees is So peaceful.
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The park is definitely soothing and calming. Listening to birds and trees is So peaceful. 
I have no idea why this posted twice.
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I love going to the park. I try to go every day.
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Its awesome that you were able to learn something about yourself,
And implement a change that will make you happier.
Not a lot of people, including myself, could have done that.
I’d still probably be looking for one of those hoods to kick around 
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I couldnt handle the stress of a smaller town…id never make it in a big city… id recommend moving to the country…
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I hope you find much peace/healing in the park. 
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Believe me, I get this. I had to leave my I.T. career because of the stress involved. It wasn’t job pressure, it was people pressure. I felt like a damn salmon spawning upstream every time I went to work and it got to where I couldn’t take the sheer crush of people in cities around me any longer. That’s why I live in a small town where I have space.
Any way you can get away from the population? Pretty obvious how much it gets to you.
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Yes, I’ll be moving into an apartment in about 10 days from now. Its in a much nicer neighborhood in a smaller city (around 55,000 population). Its closer to work actually and I will have only one roommate. Can’t wait to get out of here. Thanks.
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I really hope this change helps, man. You’re one of the smarter, kinder people here. Don’t beat yourself up too much over having some trouble with symptoms – we know we’re seeing the sickness and not the person suffering from it when you’re having a tough time.
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Yeah, I made it there. Yes, it was very calming.
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NIck, I"m the same way… i can feel the rage under the surface any moment… i hate living with it !!
Luckily I do not have a bad temper. I realized last night that I am not getting angry at the right people i.e. certain co-workers for instance. I used to get harassed at a job I had long ago in my thirties. It wasn’t horribly bad but even the teenagers I worked with who bugged me told me, “Man, you have to get angry sometimes”. I’ve gotten better
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Thanks pixel. Thanks for the support this time, and from in the past.