I just want to be normal. I don’t want to be different. I don’t want to see the unseen. I don’t want to see things that others don’t, to hear things that others don’t. To fear when there is no reason to fear. I don’t want to have to fear these things. I want to fear the normal things. The things like how I got on an exam, or if I will understand the assignment. And yes I do worry about those things but I want them to be the only things I fear and worry about. I want to see the world like other people do. I don’t want to see it with fear and paranoia filling my mind. I don’t want to have these beliefs. The beliefs that say that others are watching me. That I am never truly safe. I don’t want them anymore. I just want to be normal. I want my mind to be normal. I want it to be like the normals.
Don’t we all, I hope you achieve that one day. I hope we all do.
I want to get rich…then I would just be eccentric…sp…the label changes with money…but sadly I don’t function well enough to present ideas to others properly…peace of mind would be nice…
I don’t care about “normal”, but peace of mind would be amazing. That’s what I would still wish for!
Right now either one would work for me.
I will say, @ChildOfFate, that after over 35 years, I still have hallucinations but they don’t scare me anymore. My “normal” includes all these things. It’s still a struggle, but not nearly what it was when I was young.
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@Hedgehog I guess it is asking a lot to have everything gone. I wish I could see this as a ‘‘normal’’ for me and hopefully be at peace with it, but I feel like I’m surrounded by “normals” every day. And I know it’s bad but I will constantly compare myself with them. I hope that I can stop doing that. I’m working on it so that’s a good thing. I’m glad that they don’t scare you anymore. That’s a really good thing. I’m getting there. Very slowly but I am getting there.
I’m not on medication. I think when people find the right combo of meds that things get considerably better.
It’s hard work either way. You’re going to get better than you are now. I was in CBT for a year about 3-4 years ago and I made more progress during that one year than at any other time in my life. I recommend it. 
That’s exactly how I feel.
Right now I’m not on meds, and CBT. I will look into it though I will have to talk to my parents about it. I’m underage and right now it’s more of my parents doing things. They aren’t going to try meds right now either, so as of right now that’s not an option but if you recommend anything I will definitely safe that information to keep for the future just in case.
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Yes just think positively it helps try anyway
Yeah I’ll try to. I promise.
I’ve never been in meds. But I absolutely can vouch for Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. To me it was like a muracle the change it made in my relationship to my hallucinations and delusions.
You’re lucky to have parents who are involved and caring for you! ️:heart:️:heart:️
The thing that I did not consider was that I was abnormal in a physical way - always uncomfortably constipated. That dampened my spirits and my ego too as I thought, my gosh, I’m too weak to shitt, even. I changed my diet to vegan which is easier to digest and joined a gym. Now, I celebrate being a good shitt, and feel normal. I think a lot of my mental symptoms will also clear up. I’ve already become interested in reading again - something I haven’t done in years.
For sum it is hard unless medication is involved…when I was in my teens it was the meds that brought me out of some serious darkness. But other than that practicing mindfulness is huge.
There is no Such Thing as “normal” … ,
There is You .
Then There is You , Once Again .
We All Play (by) tha Same Rules .
Some Win it All .
Some Never Even Noticed tha Game Going On .
Some Cared .
Some Didn’t .
What’s tha Point You Ask (???) ,
Who Cares . . .
Bout as “normal” as it’s Ever Going to Get … ,
and Smile , , ,
Cameras For Some Stupid Reason L(Y)Ke$ Smiles … … …
I don’t think I’d want to be like “normal” people, but I would definitely like to be able to filter my concerns strategically. I’ve been really into conspiracy theory discussions since I was a teenager, and when I went down certain rabbit holes in that regard, I found that there are a lot of very real and serious things that most of society completely, willfully ignores, which has always severely bothered me, that most of society willfully ignores it. But at the same time, it is very likely because I have mental health problems that I was drawn to researching and being open-minded about such things in the first place, so that doesn’t exactly paint a hopeful picture, if it requires being mentally ill to care about very serious things that most people ignore. And in addition to that, mental health problems make it extremely difficult to navigate through such material without falling into traps like projection, paranoia, delusions, etc. The ability to distinguish reality from delusion, hoax and so on becomes increasingly difficult as so much of the content itself is rather “triggering” in some ways, so to speak. I regularly have to take breaks from all of it in order to ground myself, yet at the same time I feel too guilty about not going back, because if we “crazy” people aren’t paying attention, then nobody is paying attention. What I would give to be able to have a clear and logical mind at all times, while still having a passionate interest in such things.
@Hedgehog I’m so glad that it helped you. Who knows maybe if I do it then it will help me too.
@PinCushion I’m not sure if I’m physically different. If I am I haven’t noticed. I’m also happy for you. You seem to be working through things which is really awesome, and I think you should take up reading again.
@rundetoured Well like I said earlier, at least I think I said it earlier, was that right now medication isn’t an option so I will focus on mindfulness and keeping the insight I have.
@ATARI thank you that really helps. I don’t know why but it does.
@Turnip Yeah a filter would be ideal to have too. I’ve never really looked into conspiracies or anything like that really. I don’t think that it would be a good idea for me though. I think that what I would read would greatly influence and cause delusions which for me can get hard to get them to go away.