I think everyone hates me

Unusual Beliefs
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Years ago I worked two years st accountants and started feel everyone hated me and they did but that was because of my “psychotic “ behaviour and at the time I didn’t see how I was

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A good first step is to stop obsessing over it. You’re causing yourself to spiral deeper.

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How do I even do that though

I don’t want to lose my friends but idk i feel like I’ve already lost them

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Do you have any fun hobbies? Try and keep those front and centre in your mind if you do. I’m currently excited about:

  • doing spring photography (and trying a new light painting technique)
  • getting my photography drone back in the air
  • playing with my tapeless deck
  • make new bumpers for my online station with a new mic I bought

This all keeps me from dwelling on health problems, which are many.

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I do have hobbies and I do actually do them but with my health as it is right now many of them are super taxing

And it doesn’t dull the abandonment

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Ever tried kayaking while wearing oxygen?

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I can barely walk right now I don’t think kayaking would be wise and I don’t need oxygen currently and I’d like to keep it that way

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How do I stop thinking that they all hate me??

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Stop. Winding. Yourself. Up.

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Dude there’s no need to get frustrated with me. I’m already going through enough getting mad at me isn’t going to calm me down

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You’re missing the point. I can’t calm you down. Only you can calm you down. You’ve developed entrenched habits around negative behaviour and negative thinking. You’re going to have to be the one to work on replacing those negative habits with more positive ones. See a therapist. Buy some therapy books. Get moving on it. You’ve been spinning your wheels for years. How’s that working out for you?

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I’m literally in therapy… And I improved quite a bit. Until this huge setback stemming from my health I was actually in a great place.

So like I don’t understand why I can’t just try to make sense of things here. I know that right now I am struggling with my views on my friends

I am trying to figure out how to feel and be constructive with how I deal with this because I know that I keep dipping into delusion with the extent that I think they hate me.

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I’m trying to talk to one of my friends about it but I think it’s too much

I think I’m just going to make them hate me more

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Well and something else happened that now makes me think my parents don’t care

I really am just an idiot I’m just an unlovable idiot

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I actually got to hang out with a couple friends today and I thought it was going well but now I’m just consumed by anxiety about the situation

Like what if they all found me annoying? what if they just felt obligated to have me there?

i felt so happy when I was there but now I can’t help but wonder if it was actually a good interaction

Idk I just feel so disconnected from everyone

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I dont know which is worse, I think everyone is scared of me. You’re not alone…

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I’m sorry that you think people are scared of you I can relate to that a bit

I used to have a lot of people scared of me it’s a very isolated feeling especially when you don’t want to scare them

I’m sorry you’re going through this

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My friends have ghosted me all day and I feel so hollow

I hate how much it hurts maybe all my friends are fake maybe I really don’t have any friends at all maybe it’s not all in my head I should have just isolated I wasn’t designed for friends I’m worthless now I can’t help anyone or anything I’m completely useless