Lately I feel like everyone I know secretly hates me. I try so hard to be a good friend and yet i feel like it’s not enough
I feel like they all just humor my presence and don’t actually like me at all.
Lately all my interactions feel forced and awkward and idk how to fix it.
I’m waiting for everyone to try to get rid of me or stop pretending to care.
I feel like they can all tell there’s something wrong with me and they hate it.
Idk what to do.
This sounds like a delusion to me but I know how you feel.
Personally, this feeling stems from my PTSD. I’ve grown accustomed to think that no one likes me after I got abused.
I know they do. I alienate almost everyone.
I have PTSD too
Idk If this feeling is a delusion or trauma or what
I just feel so scared of everyone I care about leaving me. And I don’t know how to stop worrying about it.
Well, based on what I see of you on the forum, I don’t hate you at all. This might be your poor self esteem talking
Could be a mixture of both. I’ve concluded that mine is more of a trauma-related response.
People usually suspect that I have BPD based on these thoughts, because I’m scared about everyone leaving me. I think you are scared because you don’t think you’re worth enough to be a friend to them. I think you are worth it. It’s just the trauma talking. I don’t know what your past trauma was, but honestly, you are not alone and you are certainly amazing.
I really do wonder why anyone wants to be my friend tbh. You’re correct I don’t feel worth enough.
I’m so scared that everyone I know will wake up one day and realize that I’m not worth the trouble or simply that they don’t like me.
I’ve had so many friends turn on me out of nowhere. I feel like there’s something so wrong with me. I want to be better but it’s never enough.
I just don’t know how to feel secure and worth something. When I was being abused my worth was constantly undermined.
Tbh idk if I even have any worth which I know sounds dramatic but really I feel like don’t help anything, I only cause problems.
Sorry this got long I just don’t know if I even deserve friends and I don’t know how to fix it and I’m sorry for rambling on so much I’m just really struggling
Only because they do.
I agree with what others have said about the sometimes crippling effects of low self esteem. You’re much better than you think, and your friends clearly recognise that in you.
I feel like that after I meet new people. I think oh they probably didn’t like me or they thought I was weird or a jerk.
It’s usually a false feeling
That’s bs and you know it.
Could be paranoia. It’s subtle It really is and affects your thoughts. Meds might help.
You deserve friends. You seem like a good person.
I know that feeling. I’ve been feeling like that ever since I was young.
You are not alone.
I’ve been thinking of suicide constantly since I moved to Korea. I lost all of my friends and my friends are mostly in Canada.
Let’s work on low self-esteem together.
My so called “mates” frequently confuse my kindness for weakness. Im the soft touch that will always get the round in at the bar - and never get one back.
That and a certain crackhead thats started knocking my door again - asking for my wifi key.
Ive officially got no mates, and those that do are usually after something.
I dont actually care. Im looking after number 1.
Maybe there’s something right with you and that’s why they hate it. You’re an awesome person and not everybody likes awesome things.
Everyone does hate me, because I don’t think the sickest people around, should be running my life and they think they’re geniuses.
Thank you it’s good to know I’m not alone in these feelings. Though I’m sorry that you also feel like this.
I like the idea of working on our self esteem together. Hopefully we can both feel better
This doesn’t have to be rooted in mental illness. It could be, but it could also be a confidence thing your ego, and problems with relating to people.
I don’t need to go that direction but if it at all doesn’t check out as it being a delusion, go to the next constructive step to try and improve your relationships.
This is the old “everyone hates me” complex. It sounds like severe paranoia, and you think nothing anyone does is good enough.