First psychosis i threw away my bus ticket and went into the city to die. In an instant i saw the rest of my life so i threw it away and went to leave and die. There was ice on the ground, i was in sandals, but then it was like spring time all of a sudden so that didn’t kill me.
I began to starve, but then some nice person showed up and started buying me food, he seemed to know about the demons in my head because he started telling me he had power over them and he could get rid of them.
So, i lived still, should not have happened at all.
Eventually i made it home and they began doping me with this crap they call medicine, which has been worse than death actually, death would have been easier.
Second psychosis, i was run from my home yet again. Ended up on the beach this time, satan even showed up, or one of them anyway, he just stared at me for a second and went away. I didn’t really know what to think about a guy that was half goat at all, it went from terror to a kind of “wtf is that ■■■■?” feeling.
But yet again i survived, i was able to eat, the weather didn’t kill me, the demons didn’t kill me, nothing killed me, now im wondering why the ■■■■ nothing would kill me, i wish i would have died, it’s been worse to survive actually, i could have gotten out but nothing would kill me!
Two psychoses, homelessness, other instances of near death experiences, crap crap carp pain pain pain, poverty, and to top it all off i get to take poisons that in all actuality probably aren’t even doing anything at all but if i don’t then they always come back to get me.
I should have died, so many times i should have died, and i would have come out ahead if i had. I seem to be like bruce willis in his movie about not being able to die, it’s happened several upon several times and just hasn’t or won’t.
A little advice now, “schizophrenia” is untreatable, you are dumb for even trying to treat it, you need to just let us end it with the barbitol like sweden does you morons, how the ■■■■ are you going to “treat” someone invading our minds, and with poisonous crap no less?!
Science and knowledge without wisdom is hideous, it’s the difference between nuclear war and actually being happy. It’s what makes you poison someone to death slowly for nothing.