I should be dead

Times i’ve almost died:

Two or three fairly severe head injuries as a child.

Surgery on ear as a child.

Almost being crushed to death by semi as a child on our way across country.

Knife held to my throat during homelessness.

Knife held to my throat a second time during homelessness.

Homeless twice.

Disease during homelessness.

Beating during homelessness.

Falling asleep at the wheel going across country and almost running into the back of a semi in a geo metro.

Crossing the street and causing a three or four car collision, a van was rear ended by a semi and came straight at me. Alot of semis almost killing me.

Hit by cars at the same intersection about ten or so times. It’s been close many times.

Bout of what appeared to be demonic torment, ended up across country trying to end my life in some rancid city.

Another bout of what appeared to be demonic torment, ended up across country, nearly died on the way and after staying awhile i may have been ended.

Black widow bite while sleeping. It didn’t seem to do anything.

Some ■■■■■■■ tried to kidnap me while homeless, the truck was stopped by traffic just as we were heading out of town, i jumped out. Sends chills through me to imagine what was going to happen.

Years of being poisoned by anti-psychotic drugs.

Smoking non-stop for years.

Poor diet caused by poverty due to being disabled.

Living in a hellhole with random shootings outside.

Being taken while homeless and being kept, having my car taken, not allowed to leave. They kept the car and it was into the street to die.

Freezing cold while homeless.

My first car commandeered by “parent” because i couldn’t pay for it while homeless, he would have sent me into the cold being the basstard he is. Luckily it was off across country where i was to be tortured by what appeared to be demons the first time!

My legs are turning purple.

Bout of severe chest pain as a child.

Chills in my organs not so long ago.

Random chest pains.

Wtf?! I should be dead. Why am i not dead?

And oh yes.

I was also attacked by a possessed mexican fellow in the hospital once.

And my old roomie quit taking his meds, he was pacing the hallways staring at me and at one point walked up and grabbed my hand, i knew they were in his head.

And i almost accidentally shot my father in the face once while hunting. Not me dying but it would have destroyed me entirely. I was but a child.

Sounds like you have been through a lot - this is more reason for you to be grateful and maybe start embracing life

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That is more proof that you have a reason to exist. I know God has protected me. There were times where I almost got in an accident that I wondered if somehow God had shielded me. I have had numerous close calls.

My mom also has done some even more extreme stuff like she had an Israeli soldier pointing a gun at her when she was in the Middle East to teach. It makes you a braver person to know that there is an afterlife and that God wants us to finish our purpose before we leave.

I think it means you are either very lucky or you have a powerful Guardian Angel.

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Should be dead, but your not, deal with life, not death, that will happen when your time is up, until then, why not live until you die?

most of us should be dead, but we are alive. so count ourselves lucky :blush:

Pan-you have had some terrible experiences-my son went through some of the same things and still he struggles…
You have a right to feel angry…but I know you dont want to stay that way. You have got to find something. Let all that stuff go-its behind you.
much love and peace to you…

you kick ass pansdisease. We are comrades my friend. You and I are in the know about these demonic entities.