I was really excited because my dad said that I could go to this conference.
Then I started to think about how my friends are not going to be there because they have graduated.
Then I started to think how I lost everything.
Then I started to think that I have no one and no friends that I could talk to.
Because I. GOT. SICK.
Do I really deserve anything? I don’t think so.
My body is just a piece of ■■■■ that doesn’t want to do anything. It’s always tired and sick!
Always. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!
I HATE YOU YOU ■■■■■■■ PIECE OF ■■■■
I should just die. My voices are screaming to cut myself right now.
I’m just really really done. I’m sick of my illness, I’m sick of everything. I’m sick of my body not cooperating.
I HATE MYSELF.
Other people are healthy but now I’m sick. I’m only 23. How do you want me to live?
If I didn’t get sick, I would not have be STUCK HERE. I WOULD NOT BE STILL IN KOREA WITH ABSOLUTELY NO FRIENDS TO TALK TO!!! EVERYTHING SCARES ME.
I hate myself now I know why I’m stuck in this place. It’s because I’m a ■■■■■■■ piece of ■■■■.
I’m not going to the conference. I’m just a lonely sick person. Nothing else than that. I don’t deserve anything.