When I was at my worst… and my head circus was in full swing, the hallucinations both visual and tactile were so real they were scary. But some of the voices were pretty calm and helped me navigate my head.
My meds got adjusted and for a while now I’ve been on 80 mg Latuda instead of 60. My voices have faded to the point were I don’t hear them for a full day or two. Sometimes I feel a little lost when I don’t hear them.
But this morning… I’ve been having some glimmers out of the corner of my eye. A shadow here… a quick glimpse of a figure there… the shadow following me… I HATE that so much. As I was waking up… I was SURE I saw my brother standing in the hall. He’s not here. He’s at his own home.
I sort of wish the sound in my head would come back and I do wish… the trick of the eyes would go away.
Latuda did that to me too.
I stop taking it, and I went back to normal.( not exactly a good thing) I felt more in control.
Medication that stops one thing but not the other makes me feel like I have pressure on my brain I can’t control what I’m feeling, it’s scary.
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Ride it out. Hopefully better days will come. Going to work is important. I’ve been going through negative life-changing problems almost every day. But an hour later I feel fine.
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And I know life goes on.
“With, Within, and Without me”. As George Harrison would have said.
Seeing a glimpse of a family member for a few is nothing compared to the scramble my head used to deal with. I just wish I didn’t let it get to me. I did give him call to see if he was alright. (there is still some sneaky brained thinking that goes with the visuals)
I just wonder (a bit sadly) if there is going to come a time where the voices will be completely gone. I wonder how much I will miss that.
I would rather have peace of mind, Surprised.
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You are very young. Maybe it is good that this is a gradual thing—this clearing up–it gives you time to adjust.
I bet by that time you won`t miss them at all. OO
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I wondered about if the voices went away would I miss them. I still see shadows and gremlins. The voices haven’t left yet.
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The voices haven’t beaten me up in long time. It’s been neutral chatter. Sometimes it would take some effort to ignore them and listen to the person talking to me.
But when I’m alone, and my head is quiet… I still feel a little empty.