I used to get hallucinations on a regular basis about 2 years ago. They were a mixture of voices in my head, outside of my head, seeing people/things and hearing music. Every day I would have a man standing behind me pretty much all the time and when I did certain things it would trigger another regular hallucination eg. When I used a hairdryer I would see a girl covered in blood at my doorway. I still get hallucinations now and again but only when I’m going through stressful situations. I’m going through quite a stressful time right now and was expecting to start seeing things but have been left disappointed so far. I feel so alone and even though these people would scare me and I knew they were evil I want to see them again so badly just so I’m less alone. I remembered when I was about 14 I started hearing voices in my head and they told me to cut myself then that seemed to trigger some hallucinations so after a year and a half of being clean out of desperation I cut myself again and broke down in tears screaming because they didn’t even show up then. I felt lied to and like no one cares about me not even the ones who want to hurt me. I’ve had hallucinations on and off since I was a toddler so I’m not used to this at all. Does anyone here have any advice?
Welcome to the Forum!! 
Although I’ve never hallucinated myself, I’m sure other members here will chime in and give you some advice!
Welcome to the forum @witch.
I miss some of my hallucinations too. Not the scary ones though.
I know how you feel, feeling alone without them.
I hope the current stress passes for you soon so you don’t have that empty feeling.
I can relate to missing the musical hallucinations. 
It was neat having my own private symphony that no one else could hear! (it was always classical music) I don’t miss the voices though and never had any other hallucinations.
It sounds like you’re going through a very hard time right now. I’d suggest reaching out to your medical team if possible and friends/family. There’s a lot of very nice people on this site to chat with, which should make you feel less lonely.
Welcome! 
Thank you so much! It’s nice to hear other people miss them too, I thought I was just crazy.
Thanks! I’m seeing my psychologist in a few days but can’t fully reach out to my family as they don’t know much about how ill I was and I don’t want to upset them. I hid a lot of it from my mum because she has depression too and I was making it worse. Everyone on this forum is so lovely I can’t believe people actually got back to me!! 
i still have hallucinations, mostly philip and rebecca, crab bugs, shadow people and gremlins. the only one is miss and don’t hear or see anymore is baliel, he was a stone gargoyal that use to stand outside a church that burnt down.
@cbbrown Sorry to hear you’re missing baliel. Do you know why you stopped seeing and hearing him? Have you tried any medication to stop your other hallucinations?
i think i stopped seeing him since starting haldol a year ago. i’ve tried numerous different meds, risperidone three times, abilify, fanapt (worse med ever for me) latuda, invega and haldol
Gosh that’s a lot you’ve tried. Are you getting therapy along with medication? I’ve just started abilify but not getting my hopes up
the haldol helps a bit and they kept me on latuda too. but the last psychiatrist lowered the dose of latuda and it stopped being effective with my moods. i am starting a new therapist this week on the 7th. i’m going to miss my last one she was really nice. aibilify didn’t help much gained weight. i hope it works for you
The private symphony, gotta love it lol. hey atleast we dont have to buy an Ipod!
I missed my voices for a while and closed eye hallucinations. but enough time has passed that im used to the quieter mind.
Hope your new therapist is nice and works better for you! Thanks so much
Also are those your bearded dragons in your pic? I have one too!
How long did it take you to get used to the quiet? I’m glad you’re over it now!
I’ve never heard voices and my hallucinations were pretty tame. But I do miss the ones that weren’t scary. They made me feel special.
I can totally relate with the special thing! When I was younger and would see things I was told by my parents I was special and had a really good imagination but now looking back after being told I might have schizophrenia and psychosis the specialness seems to have been stripped away from me
I feel the same way after starting meds. The delusions went away. I think it’s really a blessing in disguise.
Wow I never really thought of that, I guess it kind of is a blessing. That’s such a good way of putting it, thanks!
about a year , they calmed down in like end of 2014 . i just get random glitches now sporadic, probably stress related triggers it.