My diagnosis is a little different, sza.
But he was talking about some kinda scary stuff
Trigger warning for others with religious delusions:
He was saying there’s a new tower of babel, and how there’s going to be a huge war in the U.S. I went home frightened and read my bible for an hour.
This guy just fed all my religious delusions. Today I should’ve been studying, but I’ve kinda been obsessing over everything he said.
I searched on the internet for a while for - if the bible is the infallible word of God. I can’t seem to get this stuff off my mind.
I’m sorry for my ramblings, but I had to get this off my chest.
Other than a therapist, where else can you share this stuff. It’s what you’re going through.
You understand that these were triggers for you and that you obsessively looked for evidence to support what this guy said, so knowing that try to push what he said out and refocus on what is beneficial.
That’s one way I try to handle my hallucinations and delusions, which are also intertwined with my religious beliefs. I can have my belief system and even entertain delusion but only to the point where it becomes harmful to me and then I know it’s something I need to stop…(for instance, I believe in my companion angel, but when he berates me and I start feeling hopeless, what good does that do? I have to stop listening to him)
Get back to your studies. Do what benefits you because stopping to chase those extreme ideas is damaging to you.
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Thank you @Hedgehog I needed to hear that. 
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I hope it helps, @Montezuma! 
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It really does. Now if only I can motivate myself to do my homework 
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You can do it, @Montezuma! Pretend what you have to study is as interesting as what that guy told you and you have to get to the bottom of it! 
Good luck!
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I have met fellow sz, sza and bipolar people when I use to go to this one mental health clinic. they would talk about their trauma and their religious beliefs all day if you let them. I tried to be considerate and understand their problems but I had to stop going it brought up too much of my own problems. I didn’t share their religious beliefs but I always use to fear that since I didn’t believe as they did I would go to hell.
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I can understand why you had to stop going. I’m sorry you had to deal with these fears. I struggle with similar things.
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I lived for many years in Northern California, just north of San Francisco. The whole area, atleast when I lived there, is like one big psychiatric hospital! Looking back, and maybe I just attracted them or was drawn to them, I realize how my own delusions were fed by those of others.
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I have YET to meet someone with Sz, Sza, Szf, or even bp. 
I feel so lonely in my city. I even went to a NAMI place, and NOBODY there was diagnosed with such. Which really irritates me. I’ve had people claim to have schizophrenia, but when I ask them the basic questions an ask similar questions like “how long have you had it?” or “what medications do you take?” and it all just doesn’t add up. I mean, I don’t denounce them or anything… It’s just stupid to lie about something so serious .
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I understand what you mean, I met a guy sza , like me, and i was very inebriated, so i asked him a myriad of unusual questions, like “what do your voices tell you, mine tell me this”, he was on typicals, unlike me, on atypicals. he had undergone electro therapy, unlike me, and in our further discussipn since that night i realized he gets hospitalized every year a few times. in other words his case is more severe and/or he is less high functioning than I. but it marked me…made me feel…
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