I am ■■■■. I am terrible. A terrible person. A terrible wife. A terrible daughter. A terrible sister. A terrible friend. I’m a lazy whore. A ■■■■■ who can’t do anything for herself. I shouldn’t have been created and I shouldn’t exist now. I’m a waste of space and stupid for ever thinking I’d be anything different.
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I waste people’s time with my complaining anf yet I continue to do it like I am now.
I hate that people care about me because they are the only things keeping me from stepping over the ledge.
hi neo politan. if you love yourself instead of hating yourself that’s the way you’ll be to others as well. why not try it – you may feel a whole lot better inside.
judy
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You are not lazy and not a useless waste of space.
You are troubled, and you are doing your best.
And that’s all anyone can ask.
I know those feelings all too well, though. I get into those states of mind too.
People love you for a reason. Not because they have to, or because you’ve tricked them.
They do because they see something in you that you’ve forgotten how to see.
You gotta remember that when your mind goes dark.
Sometimes we lose our ability to see the beauty in ourselves, so we gotta trust that others are seeing something we’re not.
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I’ve been trying. I’ve been trying for so long and I thought I was getting better
I used to like myself but I can’t anymore. Even now when I think ofyself as a toddler. I can’t even tell toddler me that I love or even like myself. How can I. I’ve seen people be hurt and I’ve stood and done nothing. People being beaten and I didn’t do anything. How can I love myself. I act all righteous and like I want to help people but when it came down to it I didn’t do anything.
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neopolitan. how about a walk near trees to help you get some better perspective on yourself and the world around you?
it may help.
judy
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Maybe. It’s almost 4 in the morning though.
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I’m sorry I know you’re trying to help and I’m just being difficult. I’m trying to be better.
Don’t beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a new day.
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I suggest reaching out to a crisis line or texting. I am going to place the crisis links on this message. Please, use one.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
International crisis hotlines:
Crisis hotlines in the U.S.:
https://www.thetrevorproject.org
More resources:
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I hope you can get some help @NeoPolitan02. You are not a terrible person. Please don’t hurt yourself.
I’ve been good about not hurting myself so far. I know it would hurt my husband if I did so I use that to keep myself from doing it
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@anon10648258 also struggles with self-hatred. Maybe she has some tips to deal with it.
sorry you feel that way about yourself…please don’t say those awful things about yourself…you deserve a happy life…to be happy with who you are and who you will be…don’t give up.
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I have had these feelings about myself, and they’ve gotten much much much quieter since being on meds.
No matter what anyone says, though, it’s hard to hear anything positive when you’re in this mental state.
Maybe you need a change of meds to quiet these thoughts? Until then, you should go with @anon4362788’s suggestion, and reach out for someone to talk to.
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Try not to be so hard on yourself.
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I think your mind is inviting you to stop carring around pain and start doing forgiveness work.
Forgiving others and ourselves doesnt mean that we are okay with something that happened. It simple means that we can seperate the person from the actions. That we will chose to stop bringing the pain of the past into our future. We can learn better skills and when we have better skills and ways to see things we will be able to make better choices for ourselves and others. People make mistakes when they are limited in their awareness, often it’s not the intent to hurt eachother - that’s more of a side effect.
Your pain is simply pointing to a problem that needs help. Would you get mad at your finger if it hurt? Or would you figure out a way to heal and take care of it?
How can you help yourself to learn to release the pain and work with forgiveness? How can you learn to be more gental with the feelings of others? Maybe try to think of somethings that can help you heal.
I had that voice for about a year(that would point out flaws and trama) until I humbled myself and thought I’d find a way to heal me and it would heal too.
I assumed if my thoughts could be used as a wepon against me than they could just as easily be used for a tool to help rebuild me - I just needed new ways to see things.
I started to take all the negitive comments and use them as clues as to why I was unhappy and look at what I can do differently. Change is a slow growing thing but it will work as hard as you do.
I feel you have to have goodness in you to feel guilty at all. You have love in you, to not want to hurt the ones you love. So you are good stuff too…just grow more of that
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I just came home from the battle. It was a draw. Stalemate. You don’t want to reach that point.