but SO MUCH that i want to say. the words won’t come. i am empty. my tears keep falling but i feel nothing more than the want to give up
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Did something happen?
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Don’t give up @eyeofRa. You worded that very well. But don’t give up.
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Hope we can all do something to help you through your day
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i feel like this a lot and idk if its a good thing or a bad thing, i would like to say something but cant think of anything to say, i dont start crying though but it is a bit frustrating,
then i’m like maybe i am biding my time and making space in my head for when i really need it, i actually like the quiet brain because its not full of thoughts i dont want and i think that is down to the med and maybe also me as well. its better than having a head full of things i dont want like voices and delusions. 
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yeah, something happened.
i’m an idiot.
i continue proving myself wrong over and over.
But you said something
We all make mistakes in our lives, if I listed all mistakes I have made in my life time, it would be a long list, just learn from what you did wrong …
I’m so sorry you are crying. do you think you are stable? Perhaps talk to your pdoc? Idk, I wish you well.
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i’m not stable. i’ve worked the past 2 days and i work today and tomorrow and it’s seriously taking a huge toll on me. i was talking to my mom last night and she was trying so hard to convince me that everyone goes through this growing up, and i don’t doubt that, but it just feels different. like i literally cannot handle it. i have no sense of direction and i am so god damn lost. i’ve never known anything different. ever since i was very young i was terrified of growing up, and now it’s here, and i CANT TAKE IT
wow, you sound very upset. Please take care of yourself. It will get better I promise. You just have to be patient…
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i wasnt ready for work either, i was totally out of my depth and this may have been a factor but maybe your mum is right, maybe it is just a phase like a transition from school to work,
it is not nice because you get use to seeing all your friends but then you dont see them as much anymore or not all in my case, then you need to make new friends and do something for money,
i didnt like what i was doing and this had a profound effect on me so i guess its best to do something you enjoy and without any pressure.
hope you feel better soon
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i don’t have any friends.
and i do like my job. but i can’t function like a normal person. working 8 hours a day 4 days in a row is something normal people do and it’s something that i’m doing but it’s also so torturous. i been thinking of going to full time but i don’t think i could handle it.
its more than i can do anyway 
lol
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Sorry you are going through such a rough time, and yes you are right it is very hard, can you get your shifts split up a bit if you have to work?
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I could understand how difficult this is ra. My advice for you is to just live. I know it’s easier said than done but you’ve been through a lot at a young age. Don’t worry about striving, the future, just live for today. Enjoy yourself the best you can. This will pass. But don’t put so much pressure on yourself. Life? What’s the point. There is none. We’re just a bunch of molecules in a crazy molecule world that has some rules you gotta abide by. So do what you gotta do to make yourself happy. Don’t dwell so much. Your mom is right. It is part of growing up. I am experiencing this still but probably not to the same extent that you are. I had more to say but forget. Hope this helps.
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i love love this.
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