I feel completely out of control. My pain outweighs the little joys I get out of life to the point the little dot of conciousness in my head wants to just lie down and die. I’m so lost and pretty much a lost cause. The hope of a better tomorrow which never comes , may it come seems not important in this numbness of who I am.
Hey man. I am sorry that you are feeling so awful. You are certainly not a lost cause. I know what you mean. The hope of tomorrow can take a long time to get there. But, things can and will get better. I really hope you are doing okay. Have you talked to pdoc recently? Or gone to a therapy? It could help you out. Sending you the best of luck.
@sharp thanks for the reply, I am going to a therapist, and waiting to find a new psychatrist. Maybe I’ve just hit a rough patch these past couple weeks or the years of mental illness finally came crashing down and now is taking its toll.
Probably a hackneyed answer, but working on your medications, including antidepressant, can make a lot of difference in how you see and experience things.
If you’re not medicated now, try to hold out and find that psychiatrist.
What comes after the but?
The day to day illness
is difficult.
How are things now?