My Dad went to urgent care. He has been sick for 3 weeks now. I’m worried about him. My Mom’s blood pressure has been high too so I am worried about her.
But my Dad left and I immediately got anxious. Tight chest, butterflies in my stomach, worried thoughts. I hate being home alone anymore. I lived on my own for years when I was undiagnosed and I loved it. Now being home alone scares me to death. I’m listening to music, smoking cigarettes (I started smoking), and deep breathing.
My mom is having surgery on her spine on the 22nd. It hadn’t been bothering too much until recently. I figured they know what they are doing and she should be fine. The closer the date gets, however, its starting to make me a bit worried. The spine is delicate thing. What if they screw up?
I think the doctors really know what they are doing but you have every right to be concerned. Anytime a loved one needs surgery it is a scary undertaking. But they are doctors and are in that role because they are smarter than the average bear.
I was able to cope by myself when i was working. I had a social network of friends. Since i don’t work i have no money to keep up going out. I slipped between homelessness and my apartment. Who knows, maybe i will gain my old working life back someday.
I’m the opposite. I like being home alone. I just listen to music and put my laptop on. Or read a book or be on my phone. I also like to exercise on my exercise bike.
I’d like it a lot more if I was able to not get so anxious. I think if I lived alone it’d be different. But waiting for someone to get home is the worst for anxiety.
Got a problem with the same kind of movies. There’s enough terrible things happening in the real world I dont need to immerse myself in more of it in movies and tv shows. Yes indeed, paranoia and being home alone is pretty scary. Reach out like this when it happens. We are here online to help and support (most of us).