I felt hopeless. Sad. Close to crying.
Utterly depressed. Tossed and turned for three hours.
I remembered repeating in my head “i don’t want to live” over and over again.
And then I woke up today in physical pain from GP.
But as the day passed those feelings passed.
I’m happy. I feel like an activist right now. I signed a petition today for teaching AP history accurately in a school in colorado, meaning they couldn’t remove native american genocide or slavery from the books. I’ve spent a good deal on my blog today working towards promoting social justice, for all races and cultures and for those with disabilities.
I guess I just wanted to be a reminder, that depression can pass after some time.
For me, it usually doesn’t last long. But Ive had a stressful, painfull weak.
On a HAPPY NOTE!
I bought 2 pounds of Pixy Stix! Orange and Red flavors from an awesome website.
I figured I’ve suffered enough and I deserved a ■■■■■■■ treat.
If anyone wants the link to the petition to teach american history accurately, please let me know and I will link it
Keep going everyone! We are the future! It is up to us to accurately depict those who suffer from schizophenia. Reduce the stigma. Survive!
Would something like SAM-e be any use with your GP? It’s a supplement that many people with BP and depression swear by. Mainly helps with the depression.
Other then that omega-3 and B vitamins groups is all I can think of that may help and many not be a problem as are natural products. The Omega-3 and B vitamins will help with all the aspects of SZA.
I can’t handle my depression on meds and supplements so can’t imagine what your facing. I’ve always found the winters nights the hardest to face with the depression. So find just rugging up warm and cozy the best thing to deal with it and pretty much all you can do sometimes to deal with it. But totally glad you made it through the night realitvily unscaved and the days just been improving for you.
Ah I wish I could be put on medications, but I can only take medications for Gastroparesis due to it being able to kill me if I take the wrong medicine. I could probably get into the habit of taking vitamins, to boost my immune system. that might actually help me to be honest! I have an old pill box I used for psych-meds but obviously its been unusued for a while. so I don’t know where it is. But thank you for the reply!
I felt extremely depressed and its a common feeling for me, today I wouldn’t let it get me down, I fought it and got some time to write the novel I’m working on. I had a good dinner, but now that dishes are done and it’s close to going to bed the voices are playing on me again and I’m worried I’ll get depressed if I stop working and go get ready to lay down…
