I don’t know if it’s the schizophrenia or not. It’s just so dissapointing. My thoughts used to be grand and fascinating. Now I’m lost amidst the drudgery of nothing.
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Well, I read that you have to exercise your brain just as you do your body. Reading, crossword puzzles, magazines.
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All in the mind though.
Nothing wrong with making your “life” extraordinary. Carpe diem and all that.
An ancient proverb dear abby reduced to this so is a longer version around…
Fear less, hope more. Eat less, chew more. Talk less, say more. Hate less, love more, and never underestimate the power of forgiveness.
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im kinda there right now, a bit of a void, i think its a transitional phase though
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Are you referring to your delusional thinking being so grand compared to your stable thinking? I used to be bored and feel “less bright” because I wasn’t delusional anymore…I was wrong. I would much rather have stability and sanesness than my chaotic line of thought when I was ill.
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It takes a bit of getting used to… getting a mind back on the day to day. It took me a long time to get used to the day to day sort of thing.
My day used to be filled with out witting kidnappers and figuring out how to start my Zen temple and how heal all the negative energy in the world…
As I got out of some of my false memories and my thoughts of grandeur and get my mind back on relearning how to cook and do laundry and remembering to buy food and take my meds and making every day like the rest…
It’s gets a bit tedious at first. There were some euphoric and manic times with this illness. But being in a disconnected haze of manic is not the way to get through life.
I admit at first… it was boring and annoying. But little by little… I found stuff in the natural world… the lucid world that became interesting.
It’s not easy…
I’m rooting for you
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I was sitting watching Carl sagan’s cosmos. I was just taken away with how smart the guy was and how awesome his ability to speak was. Clear and concise. Focused. And the content was powerful. Genius I paled in comparison and needed to vent thanks for listening guys and gals. And for the feedback. It does take some adjusting. I was talking about before I went SZ but I also remember being out there. Illuminati, techno Jesus delusions, all around feeling the divinity of the human experience. Eager to absorb new information. Making skeptical and or hopeful remarks about the future and technology. Maybe some of that will come back to me.
don’t worry it took me hours working out how to change the fax roll !
but then i did not know how to tie my shoe laces or tell the time untill i was 13 !!
dark sith puts on the ’ dunce ’ cap and trudges into the corner of the room…duh !
take care
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Yeah, sometimes I feel like that when I’m in my normal state too. Like it’s great to be normal for once and free from all the crazy, but at the same time you’re like “…well dang real life is kind of boring and repetitive.”
I always scored well on the standardized tests, so apparently I am bright. I sure am incompetent, though. I’m always slow to pick up things on a job. It makes me feel dumb. I talked to another guy who scored well on the standardized tests, and one time he said to me - “For someone who is supposed to be smart, how come I am so stupid?”
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Well, I’ve been working to reintroduce myself into the arena of knowledge. Tackling the big questions. Refreshing my understanding. I feel I ma getting back to what I once was. Decided I should try to write a book. A research novel, title “The Human Experience”. Tackling issues of life, belief systems, drug use, love, and mental illness. It is all about perception. The various methodologies that people embody to get through life. I think its a new science. The study of the experience of life itself.
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