Over the past few months I keep feeling like my therapist and pdoc are conspiring against me. I know that rationally this isn’t happening, but I can’t get it out of my mind. I have talked to both my therapist and pdoc about this, they both said it’s the paranoia. My fear is that I’m going to stop going to therapy and stop the medications because of this paranoia. In fact, that’s what I want to do.
Any thoughts?
You have to be strong about it, if you know its the paranoia, make up ways so you don’t give up on your treatment.
First, what’s the most important thing, your mental health or insanity? Who is working with you to achieve mental health? Nevermind why you don’t trust them, but try and find things that make you trust them, things they say, things they do.
Remember that your sanity and how to achieve it comes first.
Thanks Minnii. Good advice.
I don’t know if paranoia is part of your illness or not, but if so, did you know the difference between a rational thought and a paranoid one? I can tell the difference, but I simply can’t control myself for feeling the way I do.
I give you credit, because you brought it up with them.
You have to convince yourself that it’s the paranoia making you think this way.
If it continues, your pdoc may adjust your meds.
Paranoia sucks big time, I have it frequently.
If it isn’t too triggering to talk about, what exactly do you think they are conspiring to do? I think maybe actually thinking it through and realizing they have nothing to conspire about might make it better, but if it just makes you freak out more, then disregard this post.
I used to think that my doctor was trying to overmedicate me because she wanted my money and was influenced by an establishment that enjoys sedating people (in fact, I still think this sometimes). I just had to keep reminding myself that I’m doing loads better under her care and with her meds.
Yeah, I have paranoia, these last few months faded, but when I joined this site it was a struggle for me. You know what I did? All that stuff that my paranoia was blocking me to do I’d do it anyway, like create an account with this username, or go to public places, or talk on the phone… We’re saner than we think, I don’t even know if saner is a word, but you get me 
Like another member here once said, if we know we’re crazy we’re not that crazy.
I think a lot therapists are just trying to take my money without giving a damn about my well being. Which may be true. But i don’t think they are conspiring against u. I would tell them straight up i thought they were
I feel like they want to be able to put down something positive, as it makes them look good. Do I know that’s nuts to think that way? Yep.
They’re probably actually conspiring to find the best way to help you. Happy New Year.