I feel everyone hates me. I’m so terribly sad I have a Mental illness and that I just have to deal with it. I don’t know anyone irl that had a Mental illness for me to bond with…
I just feel like a failure that’s all…
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There’s plenty of people out there just the same as you…or doing way worse!
It’s a burden to be diagnosed. It’s a sentence for most of us. It compromises our lives and our relationships but I always think of others. For example. I have an uncle with parkinsons. It’s kinda the opposite of schizophrenia but that is a simple explanation. He does way poorer than me and that stuff just scares the bejeesus out of me what he deals with on a daily basis!
It’s not a failure saying you need some help. Coming here helps that to some extent but getting out there in real life helps. Try connecting to someone or something. Take up a hobby and converse with people who aren’t mentally ill…
All’s I’m saying is that it can be worse. I know that is small change in the scheme of things but fight for every single inch of your life! Keep fighting!
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for many years after my first onset i thought i would go to prison for the rest of my life from my delusions and what not. but instead i have to live free within the prison of my mind. i havent had anyone that loves me in a nonplatonic way since before i got ill which was approx 10 years ago. there have been a couple people that were brave to spend one night with me but it never goes anywhere.
now i live in a group home as of last summer and i feel like things are going better for my health, having someone 24/7 to talk to since there is a staff person here always that i can express myself too. where as before i would just sit in a chair in the corner of the room in the dark and laugh at the jokes the voices made.
i know how u feel with regards to feeling like its your fault, however mental illness is crosscultural meaning that it is not descriminative to any one person regardless of life style or what be it.
my advice for you is to learn more about yourself and rediscover yourself since uve became ill, that way you can feel more proud of yourself
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I took mdma and alcohol once and it might have been a lot and ever since then I feel like maybe I triggered this cos I’m predisposed from family history. I hate myself for doing that and keep regretting it need to learn to accept it. so I feel I let myself down
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Feeling guilty does not solve the problem, I don’t say human must be happy because of his or her mistakes if it was really a mistake, cause as you know many of us feel guilty because of the pressure of society and not because of really doing a mistake, however wash the “guilty” feeling inside and focus on getting healthy,
Meds, herbs, food, being here socializing with people who are undertaking a challenge like you and…
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There is just so much pressure on me I can’t handle it
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Hey man I know this is gonna sound bad but you have nothing to feel guilty for. You didn’t choose mental illness.
Just keep working on improving yourself. I hope you feel better.
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I’ve been there, I have 4 times of suicide but if I knew I can become so healthy and enjoying life again I wouldn’t do them, I had no hope after 10 years of struggling and gaining nothing but things changed and life is fruitful and sweet again, what’s your age and what field of science are you interested in?
I am 29 and I build boats
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So you are engineer, I’m engineer too,
Have you already ability to work? Cause I was a brilliant mechanical engineer then I came to a point that I couldn’t even do simple math problems but again I’m on, I’m rebuilding my mind again,
Please do some research on herbal psychoactive meds alongside manipulating antipsychotics,
Has any interest in anything remained with you yet?
Do you have physical pain also?
Ya I’m actually high functioning when it comes to work. I am making my own business this year so I’m able to do it. Bit relationships are hard for me my social skills are very bad
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You are 1000 steps higher than me, congratulations on it,
Maybe you have had bad experiences with people around you that have made you paranoid or you are paranoid because of this illness,
Which symptoms torture you the most?
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I hope all your dreams come true
Thanks my dear friend, I’m working on them and no movement get lost in this world so I’m hopeful,
Thanks again,
You a great person I know you can achieve the greatness
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I have sz and im not upset about it. My brain work in a different way and i think im making society more colouful. I am needed in this world as i am with sz. Looks like the world needs someone like me.
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Hang in there Wallafish! Don’t be so hard on yourself. It is not your fault you are mentally ill.
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Building boats is cool - something to be proud of - @anon20318121.
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You aren’t a failure for having a mental illness anymore than you would be a failure for having cancer. It’s not something that you can help- it just is. Have you ever thought about going to a support group so you can meet other people with MI?
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Whether they hate you or not… it can’t possibly be your fault.
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