I’m struggling really bad with this … I’m really nervous about the holiday with him. He did say it doesn’t have to happen but I’m nervous as well as excited about the trip at the same time.
Anyway back to the subject … Could I actually be gay if I’m struggling this much. I can’t see myself with women… I’m not attracted to women that way. but if I’m struggling this much then could it be possible …?
Of course you’re not gay if you don’t feel any attraction to other women. In my opinion you are either asexual (unlikely), demisexual (more likely) or really shy (most probably).
You are probably just shy.
You are new to the dating scene.
Don’t put added pressure on your self.
Take things slow if you have to but openly communicate with him.
I have thought about being demisexual too. And maybe we still at the early stages of getting to know each other even though it’s been a year but everyone’s different.
Yeah forget intercourse. Maybe you could explore kissing cuddling maybe mutual oral pleasuring etc… Maybe you perceive normal sex as being too rough or something - some people do.
Women for some reason seem to struggle more with finding out whether they are gay or not. Some don’t find out until they meet that special woman. But no, I don’t think you’re gay. I can’t give you a reason, but I really don’t think so.