I feel fine. But I don’t feel like I should.
Call it an impending sense of doom, if you will.
I feel this is the calm before the storm, and it worries me.
Ever since I got out of the hospital a week ago, I’ve felt fine. No suicidal thoughts (only breakthrough ones once in a while for a few seconds), and my voices have been relatively quiet.
Something just doesn’t feel right. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but it’s like I’m missing a part of the big picture. Y’know?
Am I being overly dramatic? Should I just accept that things are fine right now and just roll with it?
How can I shake the feeling something is about to happen?
I often get like this if things are going a little “too good”. I think i am just wired to expect the worst for whatever reason. Maybe it’s something i can train myself to unthink, i don’t know. If i were you i would just roll with it and enjoy the good days while you have them. Sometimes they’re few and far between.
It sounds like you’re in crisis so much that you’ve become used to being in fight or flight mode and you’re now still in it even though you don’t need to be. Just go with the flow and remind yourself that it really is ok right now. Just focus on this moment instead of ruminating about the past or worrying about the future.
I’ve experienced similar things,
I’ve gone from heaven to hell in a day, good to bad changes over month/ all over the board,
But I would take this as a blessing nova,
At least I time where you can have a little rest or be a little more yourself enjoy
Count the ups of the situation in the moment now,
Even if the bad of this comes back you know.
Personally I think it may just be a lingering thought your having,
Anyways good to hear your doing better, hope it sticks around for a long time @Pikasaur
I know that feeling all to well. Like something’s a little off, like something bad is just around the corner. It’s crazy because I want to be happy that my symptoms are dying down, but I just feel like it won’t last. I just got out of the hospital too. Maybe that has something to do with it. It’s hard to enjoy the good when you’re waiting for the bad. I think chilling out would do both of us some good. It’s because something bad could happen any moment that we need to relax and enjoy our light symptoms for now. Take it one step at a time. You can do this.
