I don't feel good

I’m very anxious. I have a lot on my mind. I’m on a waiting list for therapy. A waiting list! Wtaf. I wonder what sort of help there would be if I was in crisis. And I finally got an appointment to see a pdoc but it’s not till Feb 10th. It’s been 7 months since I’ve had a psychiatric evaluation and about a year since I’ve had labs. I’m used to getting labs every 4 months or so. The mental health system in this county is flawed. Or perhaps I’m not a squeaky enough wheel to get any attention. I just sort of cringe at the thought of people worse off than me trying to navigate their way through this system with no support. It makes me worry for them. And there’s a huge homeless population here too, I worry for them too. Like do they have access to the mental health services they need? I’m guessing not. It’s scary. This is such a rich area, you would think they could do better in terms of social services. And that’s just the tip of the ice berg of what’s on my mind. I am just very anxious today. Thankfully I don’t have to function at all.

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Time and patient @Leaf, it will get better soon for you.

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Hrm, it can be a noble thing to worry for others you don’t know. But it obviously is causing you some grief.

It wouldn’t help to tell you to not worry about it, I’m not that naive.

I say this out of respect and compassion: you can’t help right now. You need to worry about yourself and your own health. People who care as much, and are better capable of handling it are actively working on the problem. Please trust that there are good people who feel like you do, and help.

I know it sucks, you want to help. But please Don’t forget about yourself. Actively work twards recovery, and someday when you’re on more stable ground, then you can worry about them, and maybe help.

It’s not selfishness, it’s self care.

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Ya it’s amazing how much suffering there is in this world sometimes but try to stay positive @Leaf it’s gonna get better just takes time. There is a huge homeless population here too and the support systems are overwhelmed, I could talk at length about how it’s a byproduct of our system and legislation meant to get re-elected rather than actual problem solving but in time people will find help. I sometimes look at myself as a strange bipedal hairless catmonkey and then I think, wow, I have it pretty good for a catmonkey.

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lol, I guess I’m a lucky catmonkey too

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That reminds me, the danisk word for monkey is ‘abekat’ which translates to ‘ape-cat’

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